2 1/2 months of truth, 21/2 months of shaking, 2 1/2 months of renunciation, 2 1/2 months of thought and examination, 21/2 months of self denial. I believe and imagine how the 2 1/2 months could have been for my ex-Fiance. She would have spend time in "wrap Sessions", wandering places, going to movies, entertaining and getting entertained, and drenched in a self-created world of workmanship and hardwork, shielding off all possible modes of corruption by outmost self-denial. Psychologically would have experienced a extreme feelings of deprivation; self-imposed pressure towards high achievement; dening opportunity for dealing with emotions and impulses; a strong guilt of in-adequacy paving way to entertaining self centred and self gratificatory desires. Largely striving to live up a role of "Good Child".
This is achieved by conforming to pre-set expectations of parents, friends and relatives (environment), towards getting goals set and assessed as desirable by many and rarely asked as to what one oneself desired; only realising that one delivered only on demand not from heart. For her parents she is a prized being, no dening of that fact, but that would have a toll on the very being, as the interface with reality is also managed, influenced and manipulated to the maximum on submission. Thus one starts to wear a mask, a mask of obedience, a mask of confidence, success and well-being, just to show and display a certain kind of security on surface, but Deep down, however one would continue to carry the burdens of doubt and emotional inadequacy no matter how hard one tries to camouflage under work pressures and career aspirations. The die has already been cast for her - for one to succeed against all odds and an institutionalised thought of a brighter future. The inner-sense on the other hand continues to be fragile. As time passes by she would have quickly learned and adopted to externalise blame and criticise their circumstances. If things don't get along well, she would start to increasingly sulk, cry, or blame the environment in which she is in. So as to add more fuel the parents would increasingly look for a overseas person and deep pockets, which would be continuously be countered, for her heart drives something within her career aspirations. I atleast for see something outside of her parents will and that should happen only after 2008 and before 2010.
Lot to desire, lot to dream, but the path is rough with a tender and fragile person cocooned by a stubborn, straight nose external self. All the very best...
Monday, December 31, 2007
Reconciliation or more questions !!!!!
Today is the 31st of December 2007, the last day of a very if I were to refer it as a(u)neventful year. Am sitting all alone half naked infront of the interface to blog, is that loneliness that's what I ask myself as I blog. Turn of the year I do feel a great need to examine what has happened to me on two major fronts of professional and personal endeavours.
I feel that a few wrong choice here and few choices there and bit of short sightedness and probably overlook and take it easy attitude made things as complicated as they are not meant to be. A choice of continuing with the career and more to overlook things in my personal life
worked against me. These very decisions led me away from my potentiality.
At times I've been confronted with no meaning and absolutely no sense of direction, at times I felt a sort of huge emotional vacuum that has been creating threatening to consume me into the infinite void of unknown and wanting to establish a desperate need of relations....failing at this steps only mounts to compounding distrust on pockets of people who dump you, and leave you to dust to rot. I felt that life has been heading towards loneliness and gloominess towards the vague end of the year, so much to desire yet nothing to attain.
For these very factors are causing so much unrest, so much turmoil for this little soul at this vulnerable age, for I suppose this is right time to learn and harden my defence, for life would be more aggressive going forward. For aggression seems to be the best defence. And I wish to examine the possibility of changing a few variables to set the equation right and get everything on the fast track. Am talking about my work place, my role at the company, the company itself, my attitude, and everything which would make me comfortable and passionate about myself and the very life. I wish to regather and atleast now put down the roots tight and hard.
Well for now of all the damned things, I don't seem to like girls nor appreciate their interference in my life. I've bent on to the extent that I can't trust any girl and I don't seem to like the girls who seemingly like me, adore me and love me. People who want to talk to me on this bluntly turned down. I still haven't answered my self on how to find a right girl, a right kindda girl ...my kinddaa girl. Social taboos, changing and transit mindset of the present generation girls, family expectations, frequency drops, lifestyle hangovers, invisibly-visible controls and rigid expectations all having a potential to lead to a recipe of big hot & sour soup of agony.
I still haven't refined my recipe of stability. The recipe would of well balanced professional and personal life is the most mouthwatering to imagine, hard to cook, harder to serve, hardest to taste. Its only about time that things should fall in place or we take control of the same, and serve the same to the fullest.
Wishing all the best for the new year, new challenges which lay in the path.
I feel that a few wrong choice here and few choices there and bit of short sightedness and probably overlook and take it easy attitude made things as complicated as they are not meant to be. A choice of continuing with the career and more to overlook things in my personal life
worked against me. These very decisions led me away from my potentiality.
At times I've been confronted with no meaning and absolutely no sense of direction, at times I felt a sort of huge emotional vacuum that has been creating threatening to consume me into the infinite void of unknown and wanting to establish a desperate need of relations....failing at this steps only mounts to compounding distrust on pockets of people who dump you, and leave you to dust to rot. I felt that life has been heading towards loneliness and gloominess towards the vague end of the year, so much to desire yet nothing to attain.
For these very factors are causing so much unrest, so much turmoil for this little soul at this vulnerable age, for I suppose this is right time to learn and harden my defence, for life would be more aggressive going forward. For aggression seems to be the best defence. And I wish to examine the possibility of changing a few variables to set the equation right and get everything on the fast track. Am talking about my work place, my role at the company, the company itself, my attitude, and everything which would make me comfortable and passionate about myself and the very life. I wish to regather and atleast now put down the roots tight and hard.
Well for now of all the damned things, I don't seem to like girls nor appreciate their interference in my life. I've bent on to the extent that I can't trust any girl and I don't seem to like the girls who seemingly like me, adore me and love me. People who want to talk to me on this bluntly turned down. I still haven't answered my self on how to find a right girl, a right kindda girl ...my kinddaa girl. Social taboos, changing and transit mindset of the present generation girls, family expectations, frequency drops, lifestyle hangovers, invisibly-visible controls and rigid expectations all having a potential to lead to a recipe of big hot & sour soup of agony.
I still haven't refined my recipe of stability. The recipe would of well balanced professional and personal life is the most mouthwatering to imagine, hard to cook, harder to serve, hardest to taste. Its only about time that things should fall in place or we take control of the same, and serve the same to the fullest.
Wishing all the best for the new year, new challenges which lay in the path.
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Roundup 2007
Well I thought of wrapping up this year 2007 on the blog. I for sure know that this year is perhaps the most dynamic year of my entire life. Drawing a weird parallel to earth's tectonic plate moment, my life has had so twists and turns I could have ever imagined. The seeds might have been sowed in Oct of 2006, but the major action was in 2007 itself.
Biggest movers
- My movement/promotion to a black-belt,
- Chance to work with Alumni coupled with lot of learning
- Identified and bought my first house/flat.
- Movement & Focus in my personal life.
- Family relations-all round improvement
- Engaged and then a fall-out of the same.
- Dozen of my friends got married this year.
Biggest Learnings
- To be assertive, proactive and aggresive both at professional and personal life for if you are not one is stamped down.
- Not to give free hand to any girl, for one looses one's individuality and self respect.
- Dogs bark as an elephant passes by, and are to be ignored.
- Loving someone and caring is the thing which keeps me the happiest, more than being loved and cared.
- To be organised and planned in all aspects and try to be perfectionist, for the era of perfectionist has started.
- Live to make one's dream come true. Sense of achievement over a blossoming dream is amazing and automatically sets pace for everything else in life.
- Multi-tasking is a skill, and is to be mastered.
- One needs to be cognizant of professional burn-outs and have limits to achieve work-life balance.
Best for the year
Top Albums/Songs
1. Saalam-e-ishq
2.Happy Days
Fav Movies
1. Happy Days
2. Bomarillu
Fav Lines
1. Om Shanti Om
a. "Ek chutki sindoor ki keemat tum kya jaano...eeshwar ka aashirwaad hota hai ek chutki sindoor... suhaggan ke sar ka taj hota hau ek chutki sindoor har aurat ka khwaab hota hei ek chutki sindoor"
2. Happy Days
a.Tyson - "Neeku Estam aiythe raa, bayaam vesthe vadu"
b.Sravz - "Seniors ni juniors Question cheyakodadhu"
c.Tyson - “Max four years lo mee Andarini nenu panilo pedtanu anipistondi”
Fav Holiday/Travel Spots
1.Bhimatal-Naini
2.Mumbai
Fav Food
1.Pulihora
2.Veg Manchurian
Fav Shopping Spot
1.Big Bazaar, RTC-x-Roads, Hyderabad
2.Forum, Koramangalam, B'lore
Fav Airliner
1. Paramount Air
2. Kingfisher
Fav TV Channel
1.NDTV Goodtimes
2.History Channel
Chronological Milestones
January - A month of Uncertainty
Started with lots of uncertainty in terms of professional move at Genpact. After my stint with Genworth, I was asked to move out of Finance to Insurance core in Gurgaon, but I choose to wait for a new role in Credit Suisse, which eventually flattened out. The tremors of my movement in Genpact shook people in Gurgaon as I was wasting time to move on. Then decided to head to Herecules, Kolkatta and to USA. At the last moment I stayed back in Hyderabad as Black Belt for NBCU, which promised a lot.
February - Mixed bag
Formally moved into NBCU as a Black belt, had to adjust to late hours at office vis-a-vis a comfortable time in my earlier assignment. Had loads to learn, do and apply in this new role/
Personal front pressure on me to get married by April, for which I and my parents where totally unprepared. Lots of confrontations and rough patch with my relationship with my parents on this.
March - Stable ground
Some bit of focus at office, sense of direction to head and goals to achieve at a professional level. Starting to like and starting to learn more from the role. Personal life still worsening no one to compromise on my marriage issue, huge pressure built up has already happened. For the first time I start speaking from my heart to my cousins and slowly my Uncles, and kind-of arrived at a firm decision not to rush and fall into anyone's whims and fancies over the wedding. Arani's engagement culminates and trip to Guntur helped me a lot to understand things in different fashion.
April - Mediocre Tremor
I express my intention of not marrying and to stay focused on much priority things. I hoped this period would help me identify whats my true self and make me a better person rather an aware person. I started to explore opportunities for Land/ and property as a first step, started taking care of my financials, and start to harden my base to withstand any further shakes. Inputs from Aunts and uncles start pouring in. Arani gets married in the last week of the month, a good family get together during this time.
May - My place on Earth
Got my first property of my life. Froze it within a week of identifying the apartment. A 2 bed room, 1065 Sft apartment at Nacharam is what I choose. Had finally got one which I truly liked, and this took me a good 10 months of search to zero-in on one. Great moods.
June - Marriage Search in full Swing
The search for my partner starts of with full Valour, amidst lots of hustle and noise. Internet, friends, relatives every possible mode was initiated. I joined French classes Finally to get over my past proposal and personal issues. Great fun and learning from the French classes. Made good company and enjoyed a lot.
July - Match clicks
Finally the move of my life. By destiny or luck don't really know one of search lead to a profile which was closest to my dream. Everything I ever wanted was in this girl and everything went on so smooth and fast that I was left grasping for breath many a times. Met the girl and agreed to the match. My projects going great, and good feedback all over from my teams.
August,Septemeber - Happy days
The mid-of the year was a high-flyer for me, got my engagement fixed everything planned and falling in place. Been speaking to this girl and every bit of it I enjoyed the most and was the luckiest soul on the planet. My weeding dates fixed, was on cloud-nine never coming down from there.Job going on great, mobile bills soring high, weekend parties two months life I lived to the fullest.
October - Fracture lines, Quake - Richter scale - 10
My long conversations with my Fiance and her family started slowly but surely impacting my work and drop in my performance. My AVP started taking note of time with the teams and my concentration due to the same. I had the largest of warnings, scoldings from my Boss which can never be comparable to any in my life. As it was not sufficient fracture lines started surfacing all over in my relation. The mean attitude of FOB took its toll and ripped apart the marriage just 20 days before the date,. A very crucial juncture at which cards had been distributed and preparations are on full steam. Gruha Pravesham and Chamundi homam over Duseera all culminated during this month/
November - After Shocks
After the big Quake a series of after shocks continues, in form of feedback from the Fiance I received over the whole issue. I felt absolutely worthless of anything, I felt that I deserved no place on this planet, and felt that I lost the purpose of my life. Professionally things started looked shaky on back of all this, my superiors and colleagues though sympathised could not help me any further. Dr.Pratyusha got married in this month, been a wonderful trip to Bhadrachalam for the same.
December - Move On...
11 months into my new role I decided to move on unable to cope with turmoil and torture going on in my head. I want a change from my current role, position, company if possible. Started looking out and started applying in parallel too. Been travelling a bit and meeting a couple of friends so as to feel at ease. Spending most of the time with my family at home, as I've become quite irregular at office given the vacations and holidays that coupled this month. As of now tentative movements within Genpact and outside are possible with fair amount of travel, And I look forward for a very tough and dynamic career.
Lets see where I head and hopefully I will be more positive than ever before and take more challenges sucessfully.
Biggest movers
- My movement/promotion to a black-belt,
- Chance to work with Alumni coupled with lot of learning
- Identified and bought my first house/flat.
- Movement & Focus in my personal life.
- Family relations-all round improvement
- Engaged and then a fall-out of the same.
- Dozen of my friends got married this year.
Biggest Learnings
- To be assertive, proactive and aggresive both at professional and personal life for if you are not one is stamped down.
- Not to give free hand to any girl, for one looses one's individuality and self respect.
- Dogs bark as an elephant passes by, and are to be ignored.
- Loving someone and caring is the thing which keeps me the happiest, more than being loved and cared.
- To be organised and planned in all aspects and try to be perfectionist, for the era of perfectionist has started.
- Live to make one's dream come true. Sense of achievement over a blossoming dream is amazing and automatically sets pace for everything else in life.
- Multi-tasking is a skill, and is to be mastered.
- One needs to be cognizant of professional burn-outs and have limits to achieve work-life balance.
Best for the year
Top Albums/Songs
1. Saalam-e-ishq
2.Happy Days
Fav Movies
1. Happy Days
2. Bomarillu
Fav Lines
1. Om Shanti Om
a. "Ek chutki sindoor ki keemat tum kya jaano...eeshwar ka aashirwaad hota hai ek chutki sindoor... suhaggan ke sar ka taj hota hau ek chutki sindoor har aurat ka khwaab hota hei ek chutki sindoor"
2. Happy Days
a.Tyson - "Neeku Estam aiythe raa, bayaam vesthe vadu"
b.Sravz - "Seniors ni juniors Question cheyakodadhu"
c.Tyson - “Max four years lo mee Andarini nenu panilo pedtanu anipistondi”
Fav Holiday/Travel Spots
1.Bhimatal-Naini
2.Mumbai
Fav Food
1.Pulihora
2.Veg Manchurian
Fav Shopping Spot
1.Big Bazaar, RTC-x-Roads, Hyderabad
2.Forum, Koramangalam, B'lore
Fav Airliner
1. Paramount Air
2. Kingfisher
Fav TV Channel
1.NDTV Goodtimes
2.History Channel
Chronological Milestones
January - A month of Uncertainty
Started with lots of uncertainty in terms of professional move at Genpact. After my stint with Genworth, I was asked to move out of Finance to Insurance core in Gurgaon, but I choose to wait for a new role in Credit Suisse, which eventually flattened out. The tremors of my movement in Genpact shook people in Gurgaon as I was wasting time to move on. Then decided to head to Herecules, Kolkatta and to USA. At the last moment I stayed back in Hyderabad as Black Belt for NBCU, which promised a lot.
February - Mixed bag
Formally moved into NBCU as a Black belt, had to adjust to late hours at office vis-a-vis a comfortable time in my earlier assignment. Had loads to learn, do and apply in this new role/
Personal front pressure on me to get married by April, for which I and my parents where totally unprepared. Lots of confrontations and rough patch with my relationship with my parents on this.
March - Stable ground
Some bit of focus at office, sense of direction to head and goals to achieve at a professional level. Starting to like and starting to learn more from the role. Personal life still worsening no one to compromise on my marriage issue, huge pressure built up has already happened. For the first time I start speaking from my heart to my cousins and slowly my Uncles, and kind-of arrived at a firm decision not to rush and fall into anyone's whims and fancies over the wedding. Arani's engagement culminates and trip to Guntur helped me a lot to understand things in different fashion.
April - Mediocre Tremor
I express my intention of not marrying and to stay focused on much priority things. I hoped this period would help me identify whats my true self and make me a better person rather an aware person. I started to explore opportunities for Land/ and property as a first step, started taking care of my financials, and start to harden my base to withstand any further shakes. Inputs from Aunts and uncles start pouring in. Arani gets married in the last week of the month, a good family get together during this time.
May - My place on Earth
Got my first property of my life. Froze it within a week of identifying the apartment. A 2 bed room, 1065 Sft apartment at Nacharam is what I choose. Had finally got one which I truly liked, and this took me a good 10 months of search to zero-in on one. Great moods.
June - Marriage Search in full Swing
The search for my partner starts of with full Valour, amidst lots of hustle and noise. Internet, friends, relatives every possible mode was initiated. I joined French classes Finally to get over my past proposal and personal issues. Great fun and learning from the French classes. Made good company and enjoyed a lot.
July - Match clicks
Finally the move of my life. By destiny or luck don't really know one of search lead to a profile which was closest to my dream. Everything I ever wanted was in this girl and everything went on so smooth and fast that I was left grasping for breath many a times. Met the girl and agreed to the match. My projects going great, and good feedback all over from my teams.
August,Septemeber - Happy days
The mid-of the year was a high-flyer for me, got my engagement fixed everything planned and falling in place. Been speaking to this girl and every bit of it I enjoyed the most and was the luckiest soul on the planet. My weeding dates fixed, was on cloud-nine never coming down from there.Job going on great, mobile bills soring high, weekend parties two months life I lived to the fullest.
October - Fracture lines, Quake - Richter scale - 10
My long conversations with my Fiance and her family started slowly but surely impacting my work and drop in my performance. My AVP started taking note of time with the teams and my concentration due to the same. I had the largest of warnings, scoldings from my Boss which can never be comparable to any in my life. As it was not sufficient fracture lines started surfacing all over in my relation. The mean attitude of FOB took its toll and ripped apart the marriage just 20 days before the date,. A very crucial juncture at which cards had been distributed and preparations are on full steam. Gruha Pravesham and Chamundi homam over Duseera all culminated during this month/
November - After Shocks
After the big Quake a series of after shocks continues, in form of feedback from the Fiance I received over the whole issue. I felt absolutely worthless of anything, I felt that I deserved no place on this planet, and felt that I lost the purpose of my life. Professionally things started looked shaky on back of all this, my superiors and colleagues though sympathised could not help me any further. Dr.Pratyusha got married in this month, been a wonderful trip to Bhadrachalam for the same.
December - Move On...
11 months into my new role I decided to move on unable to cope with turmoil and torture going on in my head. I want a change from my current role, position, company if possible. Started looking out and started applying in parallel too. Been travelling a bit and meeting a couple of friends so as to feel at ease. Spending most of the time with my family at home, as I've become quite irregular at office given the vacations and holidays that coupled this month. As of now tentative movements within Genpact and outside are possible with fair amount of travel, And I look forward for a very tough and dynamic career.
Lets see where I head and hopefully I will be more positive than ever before and take more challenges sucessfully.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Christmas Spirit
There is nothing much I adore about Christianity as a religion, but am not here to tell what I don't like or why I don't like rather I wanted to share what I like the most about Christmas.
The most I like about Christmas is the spirit of Christmas and the importane with which its celebrated world-over. Its a season of holidays, get-togethers, families and friends, gifting, parties and yes Carols. Christmas Carols, Santa-claus and gifts and childrens happiness on back of all this is unprecedented. The euphoria and the craziness that engulfs the festive season year on year is amazing. The decorations, the sotcking stuffed gifts its all so magic. I loved the spirit of celebrations and getting together. The movies with all the carols, the kids, the Santa claus, the reindeer, wooww I really love watching all those Christmas movies.
My 3 Favourite Carols
1.12 days of Christmas
2.Jingle Bells
3. We wish you Meery Christmas
Merry Christmas to you all.
The most I like about Christmas is the spirit of Christmas and the importane with which its celebrated world-over. Its a season of holidays, get-togethers, families and friends, gifting, parties and yes Carols. Christmas Carols, Santa-claus and gifts and childrens happiness on back of all this is unprecedented. The euphoria and the craziness that engulfs the festive season year on year is amazing. The decorations, the sotcking stuffed gifts its all so magic. I loved the spirit of celebrations and getting together. The movies with all the carols, the kids, the Santa claus, the reindeer, wooww I really love watching all those Christmas movies.
My 3 Favourite Carols
1.12 days of Christmas
2.Jingle Bells
3. We wish you Meery Christmas
A few things I find a bit funny in India,
Its a great season if celebrated with proper christmas spirit and kids. Really would love to be part of that spirit for once.Merry Christmas to you all.
| My Christmas Sprit Level: 40% |
 You definitely have some Christmas spirit, and you enjoy the holidays as much as the average person. You don't go over the top celebrating, and by December 26th, you're ready to pack away your decorations. You have your own special Christmas traditions, and you tend to pick and choose what you like about Christmas. The holidays are important to you, but you don't let them take over your life. |
| You Don't Know Much About Christmas |
 I only got 3/10 correct So you don't know all of the history and trivia of the holidays... As long as you remember to put out some cookies for Santa, you're still ahead of the game. Random Christmas fact: 7% of mall Santas were found to have a criminal background. |
Crazy about....Things to lookout for 2008
Offlate I have been thinking of freaking out a bit and am quite inspired to take an uncanny risk for having that adrelane rush.
Racing and fast driving has been my order of the day. While biking I've been consistently been above 60kmph but my bike doesn't have a great pickup for me to go from 0-60 in say 4s's. But somehow still keep pushing it to screach. 70-80 is what my bike manages but on the bisy roads thats all we can expect. Though I want to upgrade to a 200cc if not a 150cc bike, I've been warned against doing so, and spend money on a 2-wheeler instead get a car. Probably I will if I move to a new city.
Anyways my Favourite Car has changed. Earlier I was just bowled over by Octavia. The showroom at Raj Bhavan road had suited sales woman, very modern and sophisticated, the car was amazingly new. The interiors were none that I ever I saw, and wanted to own it when I get my car. But after so many years and so many new cars in the market am just touched by one car the Honda Civic, very contemporary and futuristic design, love to own it and zoom away in this beauty.
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Fast & Furious, 2 Fast 2 Furious & Fast & Furious Tokyo Drift had there impact on me on the cars front. Lets see when I will get to drive so crazily.
Next found interest that's been bugging me in my me in my head is to own a dog. Been an a animal lover for long but not a dog lover, scared of taking its responsibility. But don't really know why this feel, these days. I want to own a doggie, possibly a beagle if not a Labrador. I want a doggie to play with and have fun, so that I can forget the world an be happy. I want to be loved and pampered whenever it seems me, and run and go around me whenever I am with it. Hope I do get a permission from my mom on this.
Racing and fast driving has been my order of the day. While biking I've been consistently been above 60kmph but my bike doesn't have a great pickup for me to go from 0-60 in say 4s's. But somehow still keep pushing it to screach. 70-80 is what my bike manages but on the bisy roads thats all we can expect. Though I want to upgrade to a 200cc if not a 150cc bike, I've been warned against doing so, and spend money on a 2-wheeler instead get a car. Probably I will if I move to a new city.
Anyways my Favourite Car has changed. Earlier I was just bowled over by Octavia. The showroom at Raj Bhavan road had suited sales woman, very modern and sophisticated, the car was amazingly new. The interiors were none that I ever I saw, and wanted to own it when I get my car. But after so many years and so many new cars in the market am just touched by one car the Honda Civic, very contemporary and futuristic design, love to own it and zoom away in this beauty.
---->Fast & Furious, 2 Fast 2 Furious & Fast & Furious Tokyo Drift had there impact on me on the cars front. Lets see when I will get to drive so crazily.Next found interest that's been bugging me in my me in my head is to own a dog. Been an a animal lover for long but not a dog lover, scared of taking its responsibility. But don't really know why this feel, these days. I want to own a doggie, possibly a beagle if not a Labrador. I want a doggie to play with and have fun, so that I can forget the world an be happy. I want to be loved and pampered whenever it seems me, and run and go around me whenever I am with it. Hope I do get a permission from my mom on this.
Monday, December 03, 2007
Mumbai - After 10 weeks
The last time I was in Mumbai I came with a lot of tenderness in my heart, floating in the air, air of romance and a dream. I was in Mumbai on Sep 13, 2007, when I wanted to make a surprise trip and also have my first hand experience of Mumbai life. I was planning to shift to Mumbai for better opportunities and also in better interest of my would-be. That time I stayed at Vara's JPM-IIMK mates apartment in Andheri (E), Chakala. A fruitful.
10 Weeks before - "Flash-back"
On Sep 15th Ganesh Chaturthi I had my Puja done at Vatsi-Manish's house at Nahar Amrit Shakti, Powai. After pooja started for Vashi via Andheri-Malad- Vashi. The Vashi station,cum IT park was unlike anything I ever saw in a railway station. As I was travelling over the bridge in the train to Vashi, I could recall the climax scene of True Lies where the Limo with Jamie lee Curtis speeds on the bridge over the sea. Vashi was unlike any place in Mumbai and is the first townships of Navi Mumbai, planned well and executed well too. Its more of an island town. The large and spacious Vashi Railway Station was built into and under the International Infotech Park, to ISO 9002 quality standards.It is one of the top 10 Info Parks in India. Constructed over Vashi railway station, seven broad white towers form the International Infotech Park(IIP),
At Vashi, reached City Centre apartments where I had my lunch then headed towards Palm beach, a mall few metres off from the apartment to spend the rest of the evening.
The Palm Beach Galleria is the newly opened 2.5 lakh sq. ft. shopping mall in Vashi, conveniently located right off the highway.The first ever Espirit ( the leading brand for fashion timewear) corner for watches and accessories in Mumbai, which is also the first in Asia has been opened here.The mall boasts of McDonalds fast food, Odyssey (a store for books, toys, CDs, DVD's), MAX Retail of the $1-billion Landmark Group(Dubai), Adlabs movie theatre and many other brands. Had good time going up and down round and round the mall. At Max we shopped for a few gifts, and followed the same at the Archies.
The next day went to Hiranandani, spent a lot of time at this beautiful, classy, colonial place which had a good mix of Residential and Commercial skyscrapers. Spent lot of time playing 
bowling at Galleria's, Hakone Entertainment Centre which provided facilities like LAN Gaming, Arcade Games, Pool Tables, Billiards, Bowling, Mini Golf, Bumper Cars, Go Karting and Rock Climbing. Then proceeded towards Srusti a ethnic shop, D-Mart shopping mall and Crossword the book stall. Bought something or other at each of the stores. Met Mr.Vikas Kochar at Galeria's footwear shop, who after moving out of Genpact joined as CFO AIG Financial Services in Mumbai. Then proceeded to retire in Vashi itself for the night, Next day headed to Hiranandani and then to Hyderabad by the 9pm train.
bowling at Galleria's, Hakone Entertainment Centre which provided facilities like LAN Gaming, Arcade Games, Pool Tables, Billiards, Bowling, Mini Golf, Bumper Cars, Go Karting and Rock Climbing. Then proceeded towards Srusti a ethnic shop, D-Mart shopping mall and Crossword the book stall. Bought something or other at each of the stores. Met Mr.Vikas Kochar at Galeria's footwear shop, who after moving out of Genpact joined as CFO AIG Financial Services in Mumbai. Then proceeded to retire in Vashi itself for the night, Next day headed to Hiranandani and then to Hyderabad by the 9pm train.
30th of Nov, 10 weeks later
Close to 10 weeks after the last visit, I again set foot in Mumbai, this time with a changed perspective. The last time around I was I came to expereince the Joy and spirit of Mumbai, this time its to understand and know the underlyings of the city. I flew in and went straight to Hiranandani, where I was at Delphi and then went to Galleria ate and shopped at D-Mart. Then bought a new cell
at Mobile Store there.
as my mobile died out the moment it landed in Mumbai. So my 2 cells have gone useless in a months time. Then went by Hakone and the gokarting tracks and also recollected the previous visits and felt happy about it. And felt if God could give me one more chance to undo and relive the past.
Anyways spent the rest of the time watching people and how they moved and dressed. Then as night fell moved to Mulund after meeting a couple of friends and eating out again at KFC. For the night went to Nirmal Lifestyle mall in Mulund, went shopping at Shoppers Stop, Dollar Shop after my dinner at Urban Tadka. Then retired for the night at Friends place at Mulund.
Next day went camping in the locals, went to Kurla, nostalgic thougts of my previous visits bloomed here, then went to Chembur and had a look around, and also managed to buy some DVDs. Next stop was Dadar and then to Andheri (W) from where I went to Infinity mall in Lookhanwaala, Andheri, had my lunch at Malgudi then proceeded to shop further, before catching a bus to head towards Villa Parle towards airport. Wanted to do more, shop more but lack of company and my shoulder baggage kindaa pulled me down. I managed to buy a dozen of Pirated CD's I couldn't believe my eyes when I got Telugu DVDs at Andheri Station, well one more reason to be comfortable if I were to stay in Mumbai.
Anyways the trip was short a very nostalgic, learned and expereinced the fast paced life of Mumbaikar, the slums and choules of Mumbai, the hard life of a common man, the opportunism of the politicians, and greed of the place making people work that extra mile. People hardly have time, and probably the only time they spend with the families to enjoy is on a Sunday, rest of the time work and journey. All people work, infact the cost of living is high and to offset the living costs the large female population is also in engaged in earning bread for the family. Thats the reason for coming accross a women more often than in any other Indian city. But Mumbai life is a stuggle, lots of diversities in culture and social stature makes this place unique. People tend to be very opportunisitc and live in a struggle for survival scenario and people keep running accross for modes of earning money.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Chocolate Bytes
Tom Hanks puts it best in his 1994 Oscar winning movie Forest Gump "Life is like a box of chocolates - you never know what you're going to get".
Interesting piece of comparison he makes on this front. Life's such a twist and turn of events that every now and then one gets caught up in surprises if not woows or ooouchs. Pleasant or unpleasant, enjoyable or painful..thats life.
Today has been an interesting day, for I had the maximum number of chocolates at a single time compared to any year combined in my life. I had half a dozen Ferrero Rocher, the spherical hazelnut covered in chocolate cream for lunch. Had back to back meetings and reviews with the customer visits and Board visits, only mode of having lunch was a can of diet coke, a few chocolates and friendly doorside Chatwala. Liked the Rocher a bit, tasted the same for the first time a week earlier when my Bro bought along an entire array of chocolates. Interestingly I've be introduced to the brand of chocolates on the day of my birthday where I was to gift the same to my colleagues. I never knew brand beyond a Cadbury dairy milk, or perk or a five star. Limited knowledge, but walk down a hyper-market and look down the various options and quick reference from a Chocoholic things are different. Chocolate selection is an art in itself, never mastered it though but understood that its high an art as tasting wine, and gifting chocolates is supposed to highest form of expression of love for youth, for an adult probably a diamond would suffice. So one interesting lesson learned is way of breaking into your loved ones heart small or big is through a chocolate. Well never a day is one late to offer one and accept one.
Now for some gyan I gathered - Chocolate it seems causes certain endocrine glands to secrete hormones that affect your feelings and behavior by making you happy. Therefore, it counteracts depression, in turn reducing the stress of depression. Your stress-free life helps you maintain a youthful disposition, both physically and mentally. So, eating lots of chocolates makes one happy--- hmm interesting, but I still doubt why children keep crying before having one and after having one, only logical answer is that it increases the craving for more of everything. Well no one can stop at one.
Scientific Answer
Chocolate expecially the dark kind is an excellent source of flavonoids epicatechin and gallic acid, which are thought to possess cardioprotective properties. In small portions it can actually be beneficial, and most obesity is caused by other foods high in calories in fat, most comonly fast foods that contain trans fats.
Chemical-Chemicals- and more Chemicals..
Happy Harmones - Serotonin, Endorphins, Dopamine, Progesterone (women)
Chemicals - Theobromine, Phenylethylamine (Love chemical), Anandaminde, Magnesium (leading to females craving for Chocolate)
To begin with, Chocolate contains over 300 chemicals and it is not known how all of these affect humans. Chocolate provides a feeling of well being. Serotonin and endorphins are the main reasons for the pleasing feeling. Serotoning is often found in the cnted of exercise, and have obtained its creadet as the “happy hormone” in chocolate. Serotonin is released after the consumption of carbohydreates. Its neurotransitters help send the message of a feeling of calmness and relaxation. In fact, Serotonin is usually given to deppressed patients to help them treat out of depression and generates feelings of live and ecstacy.
Endorphins are another chemical the brings a feeling of euphoria to the brain. Endorphins have also been proven to be an effective painkiller with same effects as morphine. Endorphins block the ‘mesage’ of pain that would be sent to the brain to be translated into pain.
In addition to serotonin and endorphing, chocolate also contains another mood elevating chemical called Theobromine, which is a chemical stimulant that is usually mistaken for caffine due to similar brain activity. When chocolate is consumed, Theobromine, from cocoa, and serotine, from carbohydrates, bind to each other and become a temporary antidepressant. This kind of binding relaeses message from the brain indicating a happy, elevated mood that causes depressed individuals to grab pounds and pounds of chocolate after a rough time.
Contrary to belief, chocolate only contains small amounts of caffine. But eventhough caffine is not present in enough quantaties as in coffee it does contain the same effects but in a lesser concentration.
Contrary to belief, chocolate only contains small amounts of caffine. But eventhough caffine is not present in enough quantaties as in coffee it does contain the same effects but in a lesser concentration.
Another depression reliever found in chocolate is Phenylethylamine or “The love chemical.” Phenylethylamine causes changes in blood pressure and sugar levels in the blood leading to feelings of exitement and alertness. It increases positive moods and decreased depression. Phenylethylamine also causes an increase in the pulse rate which results in a similar feeling when one is in love.
Another physiological chemical in chocolate is anandamide. Anandaminde resmbles THC, a chemical that is also found in marijuna. It activates the same receptors as does THC which causes a greater production of dopamine, a neurotransmitter that creates a feeling of well being associated with a high. Even though Anandaminde is already found in the brain and is broken rapidly, chocolate consumption adds to the amount that acctually gets broken down which casuses the effects of calmness and elevation. But it must be made clear that chocolate is not a drug and it would take very large amount of chocolate to create a high.
Another physiological chemical in chocolate is anandamide. Anandaminde resmbles THC, a chemical that is also found in marijuna. It activates the same receptors as does THC which causes a greater production of dopamine, a neurotransmitter that creates a feeling of well being associated with a high. Even though Anandaminde is already found in the brain and is broken rapidly, chocolate consumption adds to the amount that acctually gets broken down which casuses the effects of calmness and elevation. But it must be made clear that chocolate is not a drug and it would take very large amount of chocolate to create a high.
Many women report particular chocolate cravings when pre-menstrual. This is possibly because chocolate contains magnesium, a shortage of which can exacerbate pre-menstrual tension. Similar cravings during pregnancy could indicate mild anaemia, which chocolate's iron content may help to cure
May be a bold statement to make after experienced the Power-puff girl's chocolate power Man cannot live on chocolate alone; but woman sure can. Woman are atleast headstrong to focus regather and get along. Men I still doubt, legend talks about a Devadas, not a Devadaasi....
It is because of all these reasons that chocolate is the main component grabbed after a break-up or a seperation. It is a comfort food that elevates the mind and creats happines during chearless situations.
Until next blog chao
I am a White Chocolate Personality |
 You are White Chocolate You are sweet, caring, and truly very innocent. Whether your naive ways are a bit of act or not, people like to take care of you. You are a quiet flirt, and your power is often underestimated! |
Monday, November 26, 2007
Craziness is my current phase of life
Lots of uncertainty, after the sudden twist of events. Can't decide on lots of things, lots of turmoil, lots of pains, lack of overall vision and focus thats how I feel.
Its been over a month that things fell apart and probably over 31 days that I spoke to Shruti. Lots of people said a lot of things against the very person whom I adored and accepted inspite of the obvious shortcomings pointed out and till date couldn't really come out of this unfateful event. Time is a good healer people say, but its doing no good in my scenario for now.
Though I forcibly get to content myself saying that its like a "Casandra Phenomenon" or a "Deja Vu" or this ought to happen as a punishment of my Sins towards all the bad things which went between me and my family especially my mom, and my turning down of relation owing to the family pressure.
Learning and experiencing has been hard, lots of things have given up since then.
My Mobile broke loose, as if it had a heart, and was prime Witness to my relation. It felt and experienced the same way as I did, and unfortunately the same mobile which is less than 6 months old simply broke as I opened it.
No Diwali at home this year, unusual for I never missed Diwali in my entire life. Even my parents didn't burst a single crackers. If it was not for Vandana I wouldn't have joined the rest of the fraternity on Diwali. It was a painful feel, but I wanted to expereince it too.
My Gym and my grooming sessions all wound up abruptly owing to multiple reasons.
Had a cut on my forearm, which I left untreated lead to boil and Puss formation in the whole arm, and had to get it operated after 2 1/2 weeks of agony. Am still recovering from it. I've been bleeding for last 2 days, its pains double more due to Hyderbadii weather. The size of the depression is as big as to accommodate at least one medium sized playing ball marble. Put all the pain killers on the hold, though been advised Diclofenac Sodium thrice a day.
Had been off from office for last 6 days and entire first & second week of November. Feel very embarrassed to face the very people whom I shared my happiness.
My dream of moving into my own house fell apart, dream shattered, and torn apart.
All the 3500+ minutes of talk we had for endless night all ended abruptly without even a hush, and call informing of the next steps.
I know I am very sorry of being rude on occasions, but I couldn't be soft otherwise and ignore be tossed around and blamed and labelled as a Liar by a person who hardly understood how to assess people and values. The very girl I accepted against all odds braving against the worst of situation just showed me her back. I completely felt like a looser, for the respect and courtesy which I showed was never returned back. The respect of a relation, and treating her a person who is pure from mind, body and soul wasn't ever appreciated. May be I expecting a lot, but till this moment I feel I put efforts enough only to be ignored and treated as an untouchable. If she feels shez better without me, I thought so be it. Had she given me a chance to plead guilty and I would have closed it without a pain; never ever thats come.
Having seen all this I feel and probably say it to all that she stands to loose a lot by loosing me than I loosing her; for I swear I would have stood by wind and fire by day and the night by the side of the person whom I wanted to be with. She might not even realise it but I would only hope that at least a few years from now, if things were to go bad if she were to remember me I would be really be blessed.
Finding her I would have been the luckiest person, but loosing her I would say is her bad luck. If my gut feel and my sixth sense are correct if shez headed for rough weather, she would have been better off with some one supportive and who accepts her as-is. She would definitely need a hand to hold hers and take her along.
Yes, life is bed of roses, so sweet and aromatic and beautiful to look-at but underneath are always thorns which hurt, and life is always getting along with those thorns.
Its been over a month that things fell apart and probably over 31 days that I spoke to Shruti. Lots of people said a lot of things against the very person whom I adored and accepted inspite of the obvious shortcomings pointed out and till date couldn't really come out of this unfateful event. Time is a good healer people say, but its doing no good in my scenario for now.
Though I forcibly get to content myself saying that its like a "Casandra Phenomenon" or a "Deja Vu" or this ought to happen as a punishment of my Sins towards all the bad things which went between me and my family especially my mom, and my turning down of relation owing to the family pressure.
Learning and experiencing has been hard, lots of things have given up since then.
My Mobile broke loose, as if it had a heart, and was prime Witness to my relation. It felt and experienced the same way as I did, and unfortunately the same mobile which is less than 6 months old simply broke as I opened it.
No Diwali at home this year, unusual for I never missed Diwali in my entire life. Even my parents didn't burst a single crackers. If it was not for Vandana I wouldn't have joined the rest of the fraternity on Diwali. It was a painful feel, but I wanted to expereince it too.
My Gym and my grooming sessions all wound up abruptly owing to multiple reasons.
Had a cut on my forearm, which I left untreated lead to boil and Puss formation in the whole arm, and had to get it operated after 2 1/2 weeks of agony. Am still recovering from it. I've been bleeding for last 2 days, its pains double more due to Hyderbadii weather. The size of the depression is as big as to accommodate at least one medium sized playing ball marble. Put all the pain killers on the hold, though been advised Diclofenac Sodium thrice a day.
Had been off from office for last 6 days and entire first & second week of November. Feel very embarrassed to face the very people whom I shared my happiness.
My dream of moving into my own house fell apart, dream shattered, and torn apart.
All the 3500+ minutes of talk we had for endless night all ended abruptly without even a hush, and call informing of the next steps.
I know I am very sorry of being rude on occasions, but I couldn't be soft otherwise and ignore be tossed around and blamed and labelled as a Liar by a person who hardly understood how to assess people and values. The very girl I accepted against all odds braving against the worst of situation just showed me her back. I completely felt like a looser, for the respect and courtesy which I showed was never returned back. The respect of a relation, and treating her a person who is pure from mind, body and soul wasn't ever appreciated. May be I expecting a lot, but till this moment I feel I put efforts enough only to be ignored and treated as an untouchable. If she feels shez better without me, I thought so be it. Had she given me a chance to plead guilty and I would have closed it without a pain; never ever thats come.
Having seen all this I feel and probably say it to all that she stands to loose a lot by loosing me than I loosing her; for I swear I would have stood by wind and fire by day and the night by the side of the person whom I wanted to be with. She might not even realise it but I would only hope that at least a few years from now, if things were to go bad if she were to remember me I would be really be blessed.
Finding her I would have been the luckiest person, but loosing her I would say is her bad luck. If my gut feel and my sixth sense are correct if shez headed for rough weather, she would have been better off with some one supportive and who accepts her as-is. She would definitely need a hand to hold hers and take her along.
Yes, life is bed of roses, so sweet and aromatic and beautiful to look-at but underneath are always thorns which hurt, and life is always getting along with those thorns.
Friday, November 16, 2007
Learnings: Letting go....
Every now and then right through your childhood one is taught to keep trying and to never give, for ultimately one succeeds in ones goals.
Offlate I've kindaa discovered the other side of the statement. With the sequence of events which unfolded over the last three weeks and the kind of talk that got generated as an aftermath, and feelings of my near and dear, and how badly hurt are my parents and frightened of the consequence I am learning to live with a different notion.
Today I was watching a series on Vastu talking about removing clutter from home which would make life much easier to live. It talks about letting go of useless things of past which will allow new things to come-in with new flow of energy.
As an example of the same just caught up my mind while climbing the stairs back home. When we tighten the fists we feel strong and high in emotion, we can use our fists either to hit someone or hit ourself, but nothing more. Just a strong emotion, but by letting the fists loose, one is really could feel the blood flowing and the fists more relaxed and the person in turn more calmer. The hands are ready to do more than just hit out. Its unlocking of our own energy to achieve more.
In the same way, I guess I need to adopt the same principle, I've been holding out to my emotions and feelings for long, well beyond any tolerance limits. But for what, neither the families nor the person respond back. What is the use of clinging on, am getting stale and becoming a vegetable only to be sympathised. I trust my feelings and what my heart beats for, but I need to realise one basic thing " I should not prioritise people for whom I am just an option". Letting go is very hard. but once that is achieved one would feel relieved of all emotional passiveness and agony, and in turn regulate the same towards much more meaningful things in life. One needs to worry if something is wantedly been done wrongly, but need not worry about perception if the perspective of people are very narrow.
Anyways tonite I feel high, and I see my goals that are to be achieved, there is lot to be desired, dreamed and lived for. Am not the one who is running away from learning things, but am taking a step or two back so that I can run and leap ahead of everyones expectations to show what can be done. I wish I could prove what they have missed and what I have gained from the current situation. I can only hope thats all.....
Offlate I've kindaa discovered the other side of the statement. With the sequence of events which unfolded over the last three weeks and the kind of talk that got generated as an aftermath, and feelings of my near and dear, and how badly hurt are my parents and frightened of the consequence I am learning to live with a different notion.
Today I was watching a series on Vastu talking about removing clutter from home which would make life much easier to live. It talks about letting go of useless things of past which will allow new things to come-in with new flow of energy.
As an example of the same just caught up my mind while climbing the stairs back home. When we tighten the fists we feel strong and high in emotion, we can use our fists either to hit someone or hit ourself, but nothing more. Just a strong emotion, but by letting the fists loose, one is really could feel the blood flowing and the fists more relaxed and the person in turn more calmer. The hands are ready to do more than just hit out. Its unlocking of our own energy to achieve more.
In the same way, I guess I need to adopt the same principle, I've been holding out to my emotions and feelings for long, well beyond any tolerance limits. But for what, neither the families nor the person respond back. What is the use of clinging on, am getting stale and becoming a vegetable only to be sympathised. I trust my feelings and what my heart beats for, but I need to realise one basic thing " I should not prioritise people for whom I am just an option". Letting go is very hard. but once that is achieved one would feel relieved of all emotional passiveness and agony, and in turn regulate the same towards much more meaningful things in life. One needs to worry if something is wantedly been done wrongly, but need not worry about perception if the perspective of people are very narrow.
Anyways tonite I feel high, and I see my goals that are to be achieved, there is lot to be desired, dreamed and lived for. Am not the one who is running away from learning things, but am taking a step or two back so that I can run and leap ahead of everyones expectations to show what can be done. I wish I could prove what they have missed and what I have gained from the current situation. I can only hope thats all.....
Monday, November 12, 2007
Full Circle - Happy Days
I want to make this series the part of my Autobiography, but I really don't know wether these small incidents spread accross a period of 3 months to 1 year make any difference in my life in a long run. I still got atleast 40 years to look forward, only thing I can do when I look back 40 years from now is probably smile.
At this moment the time is 12.40 when I started drafting this in the blog. Its after a gap of probably 3 months am back blogging. Before blogging I've checked my vital stats for my blog, to see if some one is even visiting and reading the pages. Sadly the answer is no. Talking of full circle, I've started blogging inspired by my fellow classmates at IIM like the likes of Baba and Girl with Big Eyes; Nitai & Priya. The first blog I probably read was of Nitai 'Baba' on the SCon election politics. Quite entraled by his literary intellect. Than was hit by the wittyness of the Malu girl Priya. The controversy at the campus and the row which followed on the blog comments on Lionel Araha and Nanda Kumar, made me enter this blogging sphere.
Anyways today I've been using the blog to siphone out some bit of frustration and anxiety levels which I want to share and seek advice. I always feel pity at myself when I am very commandingly able to guide, help and solve issues of others who seek to approach me and whom I strongly feel bonded to, but when it comes to personal things I feel all but alone in this entire world. I feel that no one has time or patience to hear my word and if listened there is no way one gives a shoulder and pats and makes me undertand in a different perspective. I really felt that badly today while talking to Vimal a afriend of Ram Ogety. Vimal had his balance of isssues on career and thought of giving my two peneece. Just thought of myself and need of help personally and professionally at this crucial juncture. I feel terribly left out, dreams of mine on verge of shattering. Dreams might not big to break my heart, but small ones like settling down in the house of my own where I move in with my life partner and spend countless periods of time sharing happiness, and I want to be on top of the world by making her happy and see myself happy in my small world, where there is no scope for materialistic wants.
On 25th of Oct 2007, my new house was auspicously made open with Vastu Pooja being culminated after a week long Dusseraa celebration where I got my Chandi Homam completed and got the protection for the family and both the houses too. Slept on 25th at my new house, knew I would hardly sleep but somehow manged till early hours with my parents. That night I felt it was like my longest night. One partly due to the fact that I had patched up with Shrus after some bit friction which went overboard the previous weekend and got to talk freely from 24th after I let loose my issues which got out of hand with Shrus. I 've always been optimistic on this front and always believed once at home she would automatically scale up.
Eitherways on 26th Maheshmama comes to Hyd and I am wildy excited about it. I get to lay my hands on my wedding cards. For these cards I almost created a stir, put in lots of efforts and invested lots of valuble time and thought process to uniquely design 'one of a kind' card. This culminated into one after good 4 weeks of efforts and discussions. I was almost waiting for the Saturday to go visit the temple and get Pooja done. Again the night before a small argument follows on Pooja of the cards at Mumbai (really no clue why it went that way - I had nothing to say). Went to Lakshmi Ganapathi temple had the Pooja done. The first cards, set of 6 went to Shruti to be distributed at her end, (Ramya, Vamshi, Divya, Ajay, Nilofer, Manisha, Spoorthi(??) ) Then Srilekha booked tickets for the first show of Happy Days at Devi.
Lots of work going on both on the preparation front and work at my house, shuffling accross these I did somehow managed to reach the cinema almost 45 minutes late. This is my first movie with Srilekha. It took me close to 10 years to go along with her. The movie was one epic piece of entertainment. I enjoyed the movie to the core. Especially Tyson 'Arjun' Vs Sravs character kindaa idealised him. The others were Chandu with Madhu and Rajesh with Appu Shankar with Sangeetha. Loved the movie becaouse of multiple reasons,
Its something where I've been to for 4 long years & cribbed for life.
This has brought forward the nostalgia within me which I shared while travelling everyday to college right from ragging to bus travels and 120/220 bus routes to Vasavi halts etc etc.
Went to the movie with no expectations at all, enjoyed it and most importantly I didn't try to predict or forsee whats comming next, that made the movie more fun to watch and enjoy. Music and songs where very catchy and currently Happy day songs replaced all my ring tunes and am listening to them atleast 6 times a day like my previous track Saalm-e-Ishq. New tune for me has arrived.
After the movie I hardly was done with the dinner I got a call that Srilekha's brother Srikar ha an accident and is in the hospital. Had to rush with Srilekha and her mother to the hospital. The family depended on me for the support. I had to be with them well past mifdnight, the accident was a headon between two two-wheelers on the necklace road. One Srikar's friend who was driving the bike had very critical injuries. I could not bear the site of his state. Very taken back and hit by the state. Added to it there were atleast 3 deaths I've seen in the emergency ward, people crying with sorrow. I was quite shaken and unable to recover till next day morning. I could not even take my fiance's calls one I had to switch off my mobile for want of running down my battery; two because I was not in any state to talk. I wouldn't know that this would be the last time she would call to me talk. Next day, on Sunday 11.30 am she promptly calls on my mobile as I just entered my home, after catching some time on the workouts to relieve off the stress. I've begged for sometime to recuperate and refresh so that I can talk back calmly. That was the last words from her, which sounded worried.
Then things went for a turn, over an argument where I lost my cool when I was accused of being a liar and misguiding my family. Couldn't take it and this was retaliated very very aggressively costing me my dearest dream. All I built in the last 3 months which were becoming a reality is lost.
Today 11th of Nov 2007 after two weeks, a week off from office, we had a SatyaNarayana Vratam at my new house. My parents took care of all, with around 20 of the closest people attending I guess everyone made the merry out of the situation. After this went to meet Ram, played snooker, followed by a game of bowling (finished at 85) , candidly recollecting the Hiranandani expereince, and how everything is lost. I can't but feel like a looser today. Can't cry, cant let a tear down, for I can't break my parents heart as I cry for a girl for whom hasn't done anything to deelivate the situation. I've tried hard to find fault but still can't think in a negative, for I've started accepting and nearly adapting to her way of life and things which I presume are gaps. I don't know if she ever will think of me, but for me she will hold a special spot. Today with a heavy heart and void unfillable went to Happy days again for the second time with Aarti, Ram and Vimal. Had a good time and laughed and enjoyed. But all the time I still keep thinking of Shrus and the way she talks. Some correlation in terms of saying "Challa challa istam" , Ego clashes etc. Really feel that girls are hard to understand and I hope I could have understood Shrus far better and taken care of things which look like today. Really pains deep within, and really feel like forgetting every goal in my life I've set. But I still hope I get her back one day, if not that atleast I hope I get to plead pardon for hurting her and hopefuly she accept my appology, and put a stop to the bad blood which has tarnished both of us. I sincerely hope that the egos of everyone are gone, and instead of running away from the issue learn how to adopt and tame oneself to be a better person. I want to be the best lifeparnter and never would cut my efforts from not achieving the same...
At this moment the time is 12.40 when I started drafting this in the blog. Its after a gap of probably 3 months am back blogging. Before blogging I've checked my vital stats for my blog, to see if some one is even visiting and reading the pages. Sadly the answer is no. Talking of full circle, I've started blogging inspired by my fellow classmates at IIM like the likes of Baba and Girl with Big Eyes; Nitai & Priya. The first blog I probably read was of Nitai 'Baba' on the SCon election politics. Quite entraled by his literary intellect. Than was hit by the wittyness of the Malu girl Priya. The controversy at the campus and the row which followed on the blog comments on Lionel Araha and Nanda Kumar, made me enter this blogging sphere.
Anyways today I've been using the blog to siphone out some bit of frustration and anxiety levels which I want to share and seek advice. I always feel pity at myself when I am very commandingly able to guide, help and solve issues of others who seek to approach me and whom I strongly feel bonded to, but when it comes to personal things I feel all but alone in this entire world. I feel that no one has time or patience to hear my word and if listened there is no way one gives a shoulder and pats and makes me undertand in a different perspective. I really felt that badly today while talking to Vimal a afriend of Ram Ogety. Vimal had his balance of isssues on career and thought of giving my two peneece. Just thought of myself and need of help personally and professionally at this crucial juncture. I feel terribly left out, dreams of mine on verge of shattering. Dreams might not big to break my heart, but small ones like settling down in the house of my own where I move in with my life partner and spend countless periods of time sharing happiness, and I want to be on top of the world by making her happy and see myself happy in my small world, where there is no scope for materialistic wants.
On 25th of Oct 2007, my new house was auspicously made open with Vastu Pooja being culminated after a week long Dusseraa celebration where I got my Chandi Homam completed and got the protection for the family and both the houses too. Slept on 25th at my new house, knew I would hardly sleep but somehow manged till early hours with my parents. That night I felt it was like my longest night. One partly due to the fact that I had patched up with Shrus after some bit friction which went overboard the previous weekend and got to talk freely from 24th after I let loose my issues which got out of hand with Shrus. I 've always been optimistic on this front and always believed once at home she would automatically scale up.
Eitherways on 26th Maheshmama comes to Hyd and I am wildy excited about it. I get to lay my hands on my wedding cards. For these cards I almost created a stir, put in lots of efforts and invested lots of valuble time and thought process to uniquely design 'one of a kind' card. This culminated into one after good 4 weeks of efforts and discussions. I was almost waiting for the Saturday to go visit the temple and get Pooja done. Again the night before a small argument follows on Pooja of the cards at Mumbai (really no clue why it went that way - I had nothing to say). Went to Lakshmi Ganapathi temple had the Pooja done. The first cards, set of 6 went to Shruti to be distributed at her end, (Ramya, Vamshi, Divya, Ajay, Nilofer, Manisha, Spoorthi(??) ) Then Srilekha booked tickets for the first show of Happy Days at Devi.
Lots of work going on both on the preparation front and work at my house, shuffling accross these I did somehow managed to reach the cinema almost 45 minutes late. This is my first movie with Srilekha. It took me close to 10 years to go along with her. The movie was one epic piece of entertainment. I enjoyed the movie to the core. Especially Tyson 'Arjun' Vs Sravs character kindaa idealised him. The others were Chandu with Madhu and Rajesh with Appu Shankar with Sangeetha. Loved the movie becaouse of multiple reasons,
Its something where I've been to for 4 long years & cribbed for life.
This has brought forward the nostalgia within me which I shared while travelling everyday to college right from ragging to bus travels and 120/220 bus routes to Vasavi halts etc etc.
Went to the movie with no expectations at all, enjoyed it and most importantly I didn't try to predict or forsee whats comming next, that made the movie more fun to watch and enjoy. Music and songs where very catchy and currently Happy day songs replaced all my ring tunes and am listening to them atleast 6 times a day like my previous track Saalm-e-Ishq. New tune for me has arrived.
After the movie I hardly was done with the dinner I got a call that Srilekha's brother Srikar ha an accident and is in the hospital. Had to rush with Srilekha and her mother to the hospital. The family depended on me for the support. I had to be with them well past mifdnight, the accident was a headon between two two-wheelers on the necklace road. One Srikar's friend who was driving the bike had very critical injuries. I could not bear the site of his state. Very taken back and hit by the state. Added to it there were atleast 3 deaths I've seen in the emergency ward, people crying with sorrow. I was quite shaken and unable to recover till next day morning. I could not even take my fiance's calls one I had to switch off my mobile for want of running down my battery; two because I was not in any state to talk. I wouldn't know that this would be the last time she would call to me talk. Next day, on Sunday 11.30 am she promptly calls on my mobile as I just entered my home, after catching some time on the workouts to relieve off the stress. I've begged for sometime to recuperate and refresh so that I can talk back calmly. That was the last words from her, which sounded worried.
Then things went for a turn, over an argument where I lost my cool when I was accused of being a liar and misguiding my family. Couldn't take it and this was retaliated very very aggressively costing me my dearest dream. All I built in the last 3 months which were becoming a reality is lost.
Today 11th of Nov 2007 after two weeks, a week off from office, we had a SatyaNarayana Vratam at my new house. My parents took care of all, with around 20 of the closest people attending I guess everyone made the merry out of the situation. After this went to meet Ram, played snooker, followed by a game of bowling (finished at 85) , candidly recollecting the Hiranandani expereince, and how everything is lost. I can't but feel like a looser today. Can't cry, cant let a tear down, for I can't break my parents heart as I cry for a girl for whom hasn't done anything to deelivate the situation. I've tried hard to find fault but still can't think in a negative, for I've started accepting and nearly adapting to her way of life and things which I presume are gaps. I don't know if she ever will think of me, but for me she will hold a special spot. Today with a heavy heart and void unfillable went to Happy days again for the second time with Aarti, Ram and Vimal. Had a good time and laughed and enjoyed. But all the time I still keep thinking of Shrus and the way she talks. Some correlation in terms of saying "Challa challa istam" , Ego clashes etc. Really feel that girls are hard to understand and I hope I could have understood Shrus far better and taken care of things which look like today. Really pains deep within, and really feel like forgetting every goal in my life I've set. But I still hope I get her back one day, if not that atleast I hope I get to plead pardon for hurting her and hopefuly she accept my appology, and put a stop to the bad blood which has tarnished both of us. I sincerely hope that the egos of everyone are gone, and instead of running away from the issue learn how to adopt and tame oneself to be a better person. I want to be the best lifeparnter and never would cut my efforts from not achieving the same...
Saturday, August 25, 2007
My Engagement is Fixed
People, the engagement ceremony of Chiranjeevi Satya Swaroop and Sowbagyavathi Shruti Purna Madani is happening on 1st Septemeber 2007. To us, it is a milestone and an achievement; to say the least. My limited vocabulary stops me from explaining how exactly I feel. Yet, let me go on record and say 'I am ecstatic', and in Shruti's words ' On Cloud 9'. I got the buzz on in my head. And it is all happening.
Done with initial set of shopping spree which lasted close to 2 weeks, Kanchi Patu sarees (light weight for engagement) and a Light weight delicate Vankee ring for the bride. I got 2 pairs of shirts and trousers for now. Need to buy other accessories too. Goossh...lots to do but a bt of laziness also has crept into me.
Done with initial set of shopping spree which lasted close to 2 weeks, Kanchi Patu sarees (light weight for engagement) and a Light weight delicate Vankee ring for the bride. I got 2 pairs of shirts and trousers for now. Need to buy other accessories too. Goossh...lots to do but a bt of laziness also has crept into me.
Saturday, August 04, 2007
Paradigm Culture - My story
The other day in office I was reading an article on change management, and on breaking the norms by thinking out of the box. I had an interesting read on one experiment, related to primate influence on primal behavioural traits and the underlying traits in a controlled environment.
In the experiment a set of 5 monkeys where put in a cage, with a tall ladder placed in the middle with a tempting bunch of banana's on the top of the ladder. By natural instinct whenever the bunch was put at the top the monkeys would rush to get the bunch, the naturalist researchers switched on the water sprinklers for 5 minutes whenever the monkeys touched the bananas. This irritated the monkeys and ensured that they don't fall in for their temptations. Even if one of them was tempted, the others ensured that the one which rushed to the bananas was trashed enough. After a period of 3 months of the exercises, one monkey was replaced with a fresh subject, and this monkey without knowing would rush to the top of the ladder would be pulled down by the other members and bashed up thouroughly. Over a period the temptation was suppressed, the experimenters repeated the replacement over the period until the entire lot of monkeys where new, and never had an insight why they were being bashed when they attacked the bunch of bananas. So the ritual slowly set-in with the cause being lost.
You must be wondering what am I trying to relate to using the above example, earlier I was in a discussion with my fiance over the cultures and customs. In particular over dining habits and how particular some communities are. Later during the day as I was talking to my Aunt, and was discussing on the same lines, she did share a few more insights on similar customs in our families during our earlier days, and how things have changed in the recent times owing to the cosmopolitan and fast paced life. What I really felt funny was how we all followed these age old rituals without even realising the significance of the same, and how in the modern times everyone disregarded these rituals without even understanding the root causes and the logical reasons.
Things I learned today are
In the experiment a set of 5 monkeys where put in a cage, with a tall ladder placed in the middle with a tempting bunch of banana's on the top of the ladder. By natural instinct whenever the bunch was put at the top the monkeys would rush to get the bunch, the naturalist researchers switched on the water sprinklers for 5 minutes whenever the monkeys touched the bananas. This irritated the monkeys and ensured that they don't fall in for their temptations. Even if one of them was tempted, the others ensured that the one which rushed to the bananas was trashed enough. After a period of 3 months of the exercises, one monkey was replaced with a fresh subject, and this monkey without knowing would rush to the top of the ladder would be pulled down by the other members and bashed up thouroughly. Over a period the temptation was suppressed, the experimenters repeated the replacement over the period until the entire lot of monkeys where new, and never had an insight why they were being bashed when they attacked the bunch of bananas. So the ritual slowly set-in with the cause being lost.
You must be wondering what am I trying to relate to using the above example, earlier I was in a discussion with my fiance over the cultures and customs. In particular over dining habits and how particular some communities are. Later during the day as I was talking to my Aunt, and was discussing on the same lines, she did share a few more insights on similar customs in our families during our earlier days, and how things have changed in the recent times owing to the cosmopolitan and fast paced life. What I really felt funny was how we all followed these age old rituals without even realising the significance of the same, and how in the modern times everyone disregarded these rituals without even understanding the root causes and the logical reasons.
Things I learned today are
- Madi, madi well, maddi saree concept
- Pooja paat, vs maadi vs tulsi
- Maadi bath at lake and how the ladies use to keep the path in which they walked clean and wet by sprinkling water all along the pathway.
- Cleansing of the pooja area, space etc.
- Dining rituals - on the floor, sprinkling of water on the floor after food.
- Dining norms - hands, serving hand vs feeding hand.
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
Management Funda's for Real life - Selecting a life partner
Last week starting from 23rd of July I was into a week long training. I had to attend a compulsory 2 week D.M.A.I.C Six Sigma Black Belt training as a part of my job requirement, to enrich and dissipate the knowledge to the Operations, in addition to assisting teams in their quality initiatives.
I earlier attended the Week 1 BB training in Bangalore in Sep 2006. The faculty then was a BB called Pankaj, of ACOE who till date had only been taking GB trainings. Doubtless to say there wasn't much knowledge transfer happening at that time, and more so I had completely given up on me using the Six Sigma methodology, until my reinstatement into NBCU as a billable Black Belt. So this time around the training was in Hyderabad, with Sriram Cherukuvada, MBB GSS COE, an IIML alumnus as the facilitator. Needless to say the entire sessions where neatly done, and all the 23 in the class absolutely had a great time at the training. He was pool of knowledge to be tapped at every opportunity. Really impressed me a lot.
Anyways in one of the sessions one thing really touched me when he was taking us through the CAP training modules and QFD (Quality Function Deployment) tool in detail. He mentioned a real life situation where he had to take a decision on his wife's continuity of her profession. He said many of the the tools could be use in such circumstances and aid one in their decision making. Though the tools are not decision for making as such but they would prove of great use to support a decision making process by bringing in structured and organised approach and thought process.
This answered a long awaited, lingering thought or rather a confusion in my mind over the applicability of various theoretical leanings into real life situations, but surely as I matured in age, the thought process has come-off time. The last weekend of month, I was facing a similar kind of a situation where I am supposed to make one such decisions. The decisions might pertain to heart, and heart as they say is not bound by logic, and that the heart has it own rules and follows its own logic. Given this situation I badly wanted a way out, and going and contacting people is very subjective and biased by ones experiences, environmental influence so to say.Here where I thought of deciphering the code of heart, well did I achieve it?? That's a question you need to answer yourself, here are my workings and approach.One was to utilise the QFD approach where one tabulates the Big Y's in a column and all the vital X's on the different columns, and make a scorecard and then compute the final tallies under the house of quality. I wished to go beyond a scientific approach as stated, and wished to get into a marketeers shoes, and think how he would place himself in a consumers mind. The approach was how does a Branding professional create a image and brand. I heavily relied on David.Aakers approach on creating a brand has a section dedicated to how do you market a brand as a person (The brand identity system). I did my own bit of reverse engineering on this topic to arrive at my vital X's.
Heres a few steps to my approach, probably one might corealate at a much required time of life.
Firstly drill down to a set of questions on how a person's identity serves to provide direction, purpose and meaning for that person. Considered the following basis for questions...
What are my core values ?
What are the core values that am looking for which would compensate/compliment mine ?
What is that I stand for in life/family/career?
What is that the person am looking for stand for?
How do I want to be perceived by the other family and what I can offer them ?
How do my family perceive the other family and what do they look from the relation?
What personality traits are influential and how are they to be identified or projected ?
What are the important relationships in life and how to compensate the same over the current developments?
Based on this I arrived on the extended brand identity structure which has core and extended identity. The core identity as defined speaks of priority traits which are central, and a timeless essence of a person, which is most likely to remain or expected to remain unfaultered as the relation nurutures and blossoms. The extended identity includes identity elements, which are sublimal in a relationship and add on those variety and spice which is much requiered for a fun filled life, it would also speak of various smaller elements get gelled as organised cohesive and meanigful groupings, that provide texture and completeness.
I wish to incorporate of few of Management fundas I've learned lets see how well I can be successful on the same.
I earlier attended the Week 1 BB training in Bangalore in Sep 2006. The faculty then was a BB called Pankaj, of ACOE who till date had only been taking GB trainings. Doubtless to say there wasn't much knowledge transfer happening at that time, and more so I had completely given up on me using the Six Sigma methodology, until my reinstatement into NBCU as a billable Black Belt. So this time around the training was in Hyderabad, with Sriram Cherukuvada, MBB GSS COE, an IIML alumnus as the facilitator. Needless to say the entire sessions where neatly done, and all the 23 in the class absolutely had a great time at the training. He was pool of knowledge to be tapped at every opportunity. Really impressed me a lot.
Anyways in one of the sessions one thing really touched me when he was taking us through the CAP training modules and QFD (Quality Function Deployment) tool in detail. He mentioned a real life situation where he had to take a decision on his wife's continuity of her profession. He said many of the the tools could be use in such circumstances and aid one in their decision making. Though the tools are not decision for making as such but they would prove of great use to support a decision making process by bringing in structured and organised approach and thought process.
This answered a long awaited, lingering thought or rather a confusion in my mind over the applicability of various theoretical leanings into real life situations, but surely as I matured in age, the thought process has come-off time. The last weekend of month, I was facing a similar kind of a situation where I am supposed to make one such decisions. The decisions might pertain to heart, and heart as they say is not bound by logic, and that the heart has it own rules and follows its own logic. Given this situation I badly wanted a way out, and going and contacting people is very subjective and biased by ones experiences, environmental influence so to say.Here where I thought of deciphering the code of heart, well did I achieve it?? That's a question you need to answer yourself, here are my workings and approach.One was to utilise the QFD approach where one tabulates the Big Y's in a column and all the vital X's on the different columns, and make a scorecard and then compute the final tallies under the house of quality. I wished to go beyond a scientific approach as stated, and wished to get into a marketeers shoes, and think how he would place himself in a consumers mind. The approach was how does a Branding professional create a image and brand. I heavily relied on David.Aakers approach on creating a brand has a section dedicated to how do you market a brand as a person (The brand identity system). I did my own bit of reverse engineering on this topic to arrive at my vital X's.
Heres a few steps to my approach, probably one might corealate at a much required time of life.
Firstly drill down to a set of questions on how a person's identity serves to provide direction, purpose and meaning for that person. Considered the following basis for questions...
What are my core values ?
What are the core values that am looking for which would compensate/compliment mine ?
What is that I stand for in life/family/career?
What is that the person am looking for stand for?
How do I want to be perceived by the other family and what I can offer them ?
How do my family perceive the other family and what do they look from the relation?
What personality traits are influential and how are they to be identified or projected ?
What are the important relationships in life and how to compensate the same over the current developments?
Based on this I arrived on the extended brand identity structure which has core and extended identity. The core identity as defined speaks of priority traits which are central, and a timeless essence of a person, which is most likely to remain or expected to remain unfaultered as the relation nurutures and blossoms. The extended identity includes identity elements, which are sublimal in a relationship and add on those variety and spice which is much requiered for a fun filled life, it would also speak of various smaller elements get gelled as organised cohesive and meanigful groupings, that provide texture and completeness.
I wish to incorporate of few of Management fundas I've learned lets see how well I can be successful on the same.
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
An excercise for meaning of Marriage
At one point of life one has to make a decision/rather take a decision whether one is really ready, ready for a change. No am not talking about change in career, which for our generation is quite frequent, but a change in thought process, a change of mindset, change to adopt and accommodate, am talking of settling down.
Right from childhood one would have definitely must have gone through various stages of life, as a baby, a son to their parents, a student to the teachers, a member of various groups, friend to fiends, a brother, etc... but being a better half of someone whom at least you hardly knew for sometime is a real hard choice. I believe if timing is good, grace of God is there everything will fall out in place automatically.
As I always believed life is a puzzle to be solved and carefully planned out, if not the puzzle is not complete owing to wrong choice of pieces. Key again is the how rightly one is able to piece the pieces together and timing as in every game is also important. For solving the puzzle too, for the next piece to fall in place in highly dependent on the pieces which already have been fitted on. They do play an important role in this entire thing. The other pieces am referring to would the environment in which one is already placed in, the people one grows up with, the current socio-economic factors in addition to personal mindset and future aspirations too. And the piece chosen also widely defines the rest of pieces which are goona fall in place, any fault lines would probably disturb the entire puzzle and existing pieces, such is importance of the piece. I've been saying timing is important for the very reason coz one needs to be convinced that this is piece that one needs to place to make a difference and think its going to be impactful for the rest of solving of the puzzle. One always does have a choice to set others things right and finally attack this piece at a later stage, is purely dependent on ones comfort levels, and one's probably emotional and physical needs. For some there might additional dimensions as family, career, financial requirements too. A good carefully planned out move does make all the difference and is the factor that paves way to doing or undoing of the puzzle called life.
Another mindset for the marriage which seems to be an offshoot of the whole puzzle thing mentioned above leads to miracle happening if one where to be put it from a more altruist and clairvoyant thought approach would be a "miracle" called marriage. Miracle is a powerful word, and I choose it carefully. But there is a miracle in marriage – the miracle of transformation. Transformation is one of the most common events of nature. The seed becomes the flower. The cocoon becomes the butterfly. Winter becomes spring and love becomes a child. Marriage is a transformation we choose to make. Our love is planted like a seed, and in time it begins to flower. We cannot know the flower that will bloom, but we can be sure that a bloom will come. If we have chosen carefully and wisely, the bloom will be good. If we have chosen poorly or for the wrong reason, or we do not tend our marriage with care, then the bloom will be flawed.
If you believe in your heart that you have found someone with whom you are able to grow, if you have sufficient faith that you can resist the endless attraction of the road not taken and the partner not chosen, if you have the strength to embrace the cycles and seasons that your love will experience, then one might be ready to seek the miracle that marriage offers. If not, then wait. The easy grace of a marriage well made is worth your patience.
Am still gauging myself if its the right time. During the past one year I've been seeing my schoolmates classmates so to say, who are from the same age group getting married. Sarvotham got married, Nitin Phillips is already a father last week, best buddy Elastic got married early this year, Suraj, Rahul, Raj Kumar, Sarat have their dates fixed up in last quarter this year. Koti, Ravi are also lined up. Looks like everyone is taking off, some are still waiting patiently for their loves to click. On the IIM groups every month you are greeted with atleast one invite, or on orkut saying Satya Swaroop you are being invited. Are they an influencing factor, hmm..definitely no for me, but still plants a seed of thought in the process, a happy thought. For as far as I can feel am ready for this. Ler's see how far am into this...
Right from childhood one would have definitely must have gone through various stages of life, as a baby, a son to their parents, a student to the teachers, a member of various groups, friend to fiends, a brother, etc... but being a better half of someone whom at least you hardly knew for sometime is a real hard choice. I believe if timing is good, grace of God is there everything will fall out in place automatically.
As I always believed life is a puzzle to be solved and carefully planned out, if not the puzzle is not complete owing to wrong choice of pieces. Key again is the how rightly one is able to piece the pieces together and timing as in every game is also important. For solving the puzzle too, for the next piece to fall in place in highly dependent on the pieces which already have been fitted on. They do play an important role in this entire thing. The other pieces am referring to would the environment in which one is already placed in, the people one grows up with, the current socio-economic factors in addition to personal mindset and future aspirations too. And the piece chosen also widely defines the rest of pieces which are goona fall in place, any fault lines would probably disturb the entire puzzle and existing pieces, such is importance of the piece. I've been saying timing is important for the very reason coz one needs to be convinced that this is piece that one needs to place to make a difference and think its going to be impactful for the rest of solving of the puzzle. One always does have a choice to set others things right and finally attack this piece at a later stage, is purely dependent on ones comfort levels, and one's probably emotional and physical needs. For some there might additional dimensions as family, career, financial requirements too. A good carefully planned out move does make all the difference and is the factor that paves way to doing or undoing of the puzzle called life.
Another mindset for the marriage which seems to be an offshoot of the whole puzzle thing mentioned above leads to miracle happening if one where to be put it from a more altruist and clairvoyant thought approach would be a "miracle" called marriage. Miracle is a powerful word, and I choose it carefully. But there is a miracle in marriage – the miracle of transformation. Transformation is one of the most common events of nature. The seed becomes the flower. The cocoon becomes the butterfly. Winter becomes spring and love becomes a child. Marriage is a transformation we choose to make. Our love is planted like a seed, and in time it begins to flower. We cannot know the flower that will bloom, but we can be sure that a bloom will come. If we have chosen carefully and wisely, the bloom will be good. If we have chosen poorly or for the wrong reason, or we do not tend our marriage with care, then the bloom will be flawed.
If you believe in your heart that you have found someone with whom you are able to grow, if you have sufficient faith that you can resist the endless attraction of the road not taken and the partner not chosen, if you have the strength to embrace the cycles and seasons that your love will experience, then one might be ready to seek the miracle that marriage offers. If not, then wait. The easy grace of a marriage well made is worth your patience.
Am still gauging myself if its the right time. During the past one year I've been seeing my schoolmates classmates so to say, who are from the same age group getting married. Sarvotham got married, Nitin Phillips is already a father last week, best buddy Elastic got married early this year, Suraj, Rahul, Raj Kumar, Sarat have their dates fixed up in last quarter this year. Koti, Ravi are also lined up. Looks like everyone is taking off, some are still waiting patiently for their loves to click. On the IIM groups every month you are greeted with atleast one invite, or on orkut saying Satya Swaroop you are being invited. Are they an influencing factor, hmm..definitely no for me, but still plants a seed of thought in the process, a happy thought. For as far as I can feel am ready for this. Ler's see how far am into this...
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Genpact, Jaipur
Finally on Friday morning we hit the road headed towards Jaipur, we had an AC bus specially arranged for us, and an rest of the people who didn't feel like fitting in went in a Qualis. Sruthi dropped this leg of the trip as she was due for her marriage. The rest of the troop made it to the pink city. The travel was fun, for me though I was tired after the Leadership party, I did manage to get my share of fun. We by this time formed our own group of Saurabh's Karan, Surya, Viral, Prasad, Tarak, Kaushik and Manish. Yummy Yamini and Sai. Travelling always has been fun for me, we reached Jaipur amd we were put up at Country inn there. We got our rooms after an hour of wait, people were so tired that they all jumped into the available rooms even before their rooms were made ready. Quickly freshen up and left for office at around 2pm. Had our lunch Pizzaa's then some gyan and quick match of Volleyball. We beat the seniors convinicingly. Then for the night we went to the city palace for the party. Traditional palace with some Rajputaana heritage. We partied till 11. Lots of fun for me, danced like crazy, the group too came out very actively for the party. Ramnath and Rachna had a clash as he was overly drunk and lost control. Shobit was puking all the time yucks. Came back after a wonderful evening just sank into the bed and fell asleep for a rather long funfilled day.
Next day I thought of hitting the pool in afternoon, but no costumes so was not allowed. Breakfast was really fantastic at the hotel, really large menu and a muli-cuisine actually. I never knew that breakfast could have these many varieties. Rest of the day I slept as the rest of the people we shopping in Jaipur. Towards the afternoon we went to Ajmer fort near the outskirts of the city. Forts and palaces and history culture and heritage had always been my interests. Was really overwhelmed by the structures which were carefully camouflaged with the sands hills. Awesome sight. Once inside the palace we visited various rooms and halls in the fort. This palace had been a centre of great rule, and for now many movies have also been shot here.
Towards the evening we broke the day towards a Rajasthani theme village resort called Chowkidhani, as similar to our Dola-ri-dhani in Hyderabad. Big big facility, lots of traditionally styled houses and stalls. Crowds were huge in number too owing to the fact it was saturday. We shopped, played games, rode horses, elephants, camels , shook are legs to Rajasthani folklore, went on rides. So much of fun it was. The food houses there were a treat, food was rich in ghee and we have been served soo much of Makhan that I've never had in my entire life. Over half a dozen varieties of rotis were served in all, similar amount of sweets and curries that I ever tasted or smelled off. And servers were also a fun to watch, they kept adding more ghee and sugar icing to it and kept insisting on having it. Else they would keep saying "Is umar mein nahin tho kab" It was neatly choreographed way of serving and enacting. They did their job quite winderfully. A must visit place if one is in Jaipur. After all the cracking time we all came back to hotel with lots of smiles and heavy stomach. It hardly took a few minutes for me sleep deep. Next day morning we were off packing our bags, to go to Gurgaon and then to Airport to catch our flight back home to Hyderabad for the final leg of Orientation. Never in life would forget these experiences. Awesome experience...
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Facts abt GUYS (adapted)
If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him;If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.
If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him;If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.
If u ! are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.
If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.
If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him;If u do!! he says u are CHEAP.
If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROBLESOME;If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like ! a NANNY to him;If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMENT.
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;If he HURTS u, u ar e too ! SENSITIVE!! & sooo hard to please!!!!!
If u send this to guys, they will swear that it's not true....... but if u don't, they say u are selfish.....
The moral of the story is.......SEND THIS TO GUYS OUT THERE ANYWAY...
*33 Facts about Guyz*
GUYS SHOULD KNOW THEMSELVES
Girls r surely going to read it
*Believe it or not.......
1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neatand presentable girls.
2. Guys hate flirts.
3. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're notthinking the way he is.
4. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep,they always think about the girl they truly care about.
5. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.
6. Guys go! crazy over a girl's smile.
7. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
8. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.
9. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow".
10. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
11. Guys love their moms.
12. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
13. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.
14. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
15. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
16. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
17. Like Eve, girls are guys' weaknesses.
18. Guys are very open about themselves.
19. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.
20. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
21. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.
22. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice
23. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
24. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
25. Guys think too much.
26. Guys fantasies are unlimited.
27. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!
28. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!
29. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
30. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
31. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.
32. Guys hate girls who overreact.
33. Guys love you more than you love them IF they are serious in your relationships.
If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him;If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.
If u ! are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.
If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.
If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him;If u do!! he says u are CHEAP.
If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROBLESOME;If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like ! a NANNY to him;If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMENT.
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;If he HURTS u, u ar e too ! SENSITIVE!! & sooo hard to please!!!!!
If u send this to guys, they will swear that it's not true....... but if u don't, they say u are selfish.....
The moral of the story is.......SEND THIS TO GUYS OUT THERE ANYWAY...
*33 Facts about Guyz*
GUYS SHOULD KNOW THEMSELVES
Girls r surely going to read it
*Believe it or not.......
1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neatand presentable girls.
2. Guys hate flirts.
3. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're notthinking the way he is.
4. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep,they always think about the girl they truly care about.
5. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.
6. Guys go! crazy over a girl's smile.
7. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
8. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.
9. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow".
10. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
11. Guys love their moms.
12. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
13. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.
14. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
15. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
16. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
17. Like Eve, girls are guys' weaknesses.
18. Guys are very open about themselves.
19. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.
20. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
21. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.
22. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice
23. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
24. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
25. Guys think too much.
26. Guys fantasies are unlimited.
27. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!
28. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!
29. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
30. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
31. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.
32. Guys hate girls who overreact.
33. Guys love you more than you love them IF they are serious in your relationships.
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