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Thursday, June 05, 2008
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Who moved my heart ?
The first day to office for the month of June had a rather unusual start. I woke up late and took time to get myself ready for the office bus. So royally I walked in hoping I would get the later bus which starts a bit late, only to realise that it too has left. So panted myself nearly a kilometer to spot a Tum Tum ( A Six-Seater Tempo).
One reaching the vehicle I had a seat sandwitced between a Lady and another person all on their way to Hinjewadi IT Park area. As we adjusted to start the 6-Seater was filled with 4 ladies in front of me and 3 men (including me) on the opposite side. I believe one was from my Co, other two from Wipro and other Yellow coloured Salwar (unknown). Was already perspirating enough which was making me very uncomfortable with these women in front.
Ok the fun starts now, the UKN (referred as Unknown Lady) was very much like Renuka Kirpalani.
Ok, who is Renuka??? She is an ace navigator, is a veteran in Indian Rally circuit and anchor on CNBC-TV18's The Auto Show (now replaced by OverDrive). She has completed the gruelling 8,000km Asean-India Rally in 2004. The UKN I refereed to was very much like Renuka, except she had longer hair which was let out untied and kept flying off more often than required. And this lady kept or rather had to keep adjusting her hairs every now and then. Sitting right infront of her looking right through her tender face, light coloured eyes, sprawling hair which seem to be flowing like a sprinkle of water stream in all directions, and tender coloured lips to add, looked like a very charming personality. She had a mischievous little smile, which teased me more often, and which did send signals to UKN that I was feeling uncomfortable because of her. I tried avoiding eye contact and tried to stare somewhere else and put a gaze in a safe direction, but I was sitting in such an uncompromising position that I couldn't save myself for long without getting my gaze past her. As much I was being uncomfortable trying an avoiding I couldn't stop praising her in between for her looks. Slim long face, delicate little gazes, smiles which meant a lot. The more I avoided looking, the more uncomfortable I became and the more fun it was for her understanding my state. Finally as my office location came I jumped out, yes properly jumped out paid and left without even looking back at her. A grasped my breath while breathing a sigh of relief. And the greatest point of the whole episode is I presume she is married, as she fashioned a sleek black beeded mangalsutra. Good way to start the month and remeber.
One reaching the vehicle I had a seat sandwitced between a Lady and another person all on their way to Hinjewadi IT Park area. As we adjusted to start the 6-Seater was filled with 4 ladies in front of me and 3 men (including me) on the opposite side. I believe one was from my Co, other two from Wipro and other Yellow coloured Salwar (unknown). Was already perspirating enough which was making me very uncomfortable with these women in front.
Ok the fun starts now, the UKN (referred as Unknown Lady) was very much like Renuka Kirpalani.
Ok, who is Renuka??? She is an ace navigator, is a veteran in Indian Rally circuit and anchor on CNBC-TV18's The Auto Show (now replaced by OverDrive). She has completed the gruelling 8,000km Asean-India Rally in 2004. The UKN I refereed to was very much like Renuka, except she had longer hair which was let out untied and kept flying off more often than required. And this lady kept or rather had to keep adjusting her hairs every now and then. Sitting right infront of her looking right through her tender face, light coloured eyes, sprawling hair which seem to be flowing like a sprinkle of water stream in all directions, and tender coloured lips to add, looked like a very charming personality. She had a mischievous little smile, which teased me more often, and which did send signals to UKN that I was feeling uncomfortable because of her. I tried avoiding eye contact and tried to stare somewhere else and put a gaze in a safe direction, but I was sitting in such an uncompromising position that I couldn't save myself for long without getting my gaze past her. As much I was being uncomfortable trying an avoiding I couldn't stop praising her in between for her looks. Slim long face, delicate little gazes, smiles which meant a lot. The more I avoided looking, the more uncomfortable I became and the more fun it was for her understanding my state. Finally as my office location came I jumped out, yes properly jumped out paid and left without even looking back at her. A grasped my breath while breathing a sigh of relief. And the greatest point of the whole episode is I presume she is married, as she fashioned a sleek black beeded mangalsutra. Good way to start the month and remeber.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Pune to Mumbai
On 30th of May I set on journey to Mumbai from Pune. We started from my place in Aundh in Pune at around 10pm in the Maruti Baleno. 10km off we hit the Mumbai high way and few more kilometers we reached the Mumbai Expressway Talegaon tollgate to start our fastlane heading to Mumbai. First stop on the way was the HP Filling station. While the tanks got filled we emptied ours and catch up a bit a refreshments to keep ourselves awake for the journey ahead. The Mumbai Pune Expressway is India's first six-lane concrete, high-speed, access controlled tolled expressway which pressed into service in April 2002 after four years of planning and four more years of construction. The expressway spans a distance of 93 km connected by five tunnels, with the longest one almost 1km long and is called the Batan tunnel. The ventilators in the tunnel resemble the 30000 HP GE Jet turbine engine.
The most amazing part of the expressway in addition to this being among the most ambitious of its kinds in India is the scenic ambiance of the western ghats that can be seen on the way. As we drive past Khamshet, Lonowale, Khandala, Khopoli a series of curves and bends of the ghat roads gradualy unfold. Yes these ghat roads are more tamed than the usual ghat roads I am used to, but never the less its still thrills to drive down the roads. The speed limits specified is 30km on these Ghat section but 70kmph is easily doable. The regular freeway speed limit is around 80kmph though 140kmph is easy.
Towards mid-night we started heading towards Panvel - Kalamboli section to drive towards Navi Mumbai. As we started entering Vashi, felt very uncomfortable and I sort of withdraw into the confines of the car as the excitement of the Ghat roads and the long drive instantly waned out. A few more minutes on the Thane road, Mulund then entered Powaii. Driving past the Hiranandani Gardens reached our place in Fiorello, Nahar Amrit Shakti, Powai. The city of hopes and aspirations keeps calling me at the most unusal of circumstances and situation. Looking for good time in Mumbai..
The most amazing part of the expressway in addition to this being among the most ambitious of its kinds in India is the scenic ambiance of the western ghats that can be seen on the way. As we drive past Khamshet, Lonowale, Khandala, Khopoli a series of curves and bends of the ghat roads gradualy unfold. Yes these ghat roads are more tamed than the usual ghat roads I am used to, but never the less its still thrills to drive down the roads. The speed limits specified is 30km on these Ghat section but 70kmph is easily doable. The regular freeway speed limit is around 80kmph though 140kmph is easy.
Towards mid-night we started heading towards Panvel - Kalamboli section to drive towards Navi Mumbai. As we started entering Vashi, felt very uncomfortable and I sort of withdraw into the confines of the car as the excitement of the Ghat roads and the long drive instantly waned out. A few more minutes on the Thane road, Mulund then entered Powaii. Driving past the Hiranandani Gardens reached our place in Fiorello, Nahar Amrit Shakti, Powai. The city of hopes and aspirations keeps calling me at the most unusal of circumstances and situation. Looking for good time in Mumbai..
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
Carpe diem quam minimum credula postero
The start of this year has been on back of a very hard realities of life that I came to be face to face with. Rejections, hardships, failures, support or lack of support,expressability or lack of it all and more combined came to my reckoning. Sometimes I imagine how would have life been if I haven't taken those two crucial steps.
1. Breaking
2. Matching up and breaking
Life would surely would have been different; but life is not always un sympathetic, it would have its own share of undoing things. I might have have a different forces to deal with; may be a personal drain of my own efforts to some extent. But see it from a different angle; hadn't I gone through this phase of life ; might be a 8 months of the dynamism; it would have paved way to a much bigger thought process and understanding which dawned on me later on.
I could understand
Thinking about the past makes me happy; thinking of recent past makes me sad, thinking about future which is uncertain, unnerves me; But I don't know clinging on to the bygone past and thinking and getting tensed un arrived future why one is torturing his present; making ones past, present and future and tragedy to live and tell. Telling and preaching is easy but listening, understanding, digesting and following mind you is an entirely a different league. Accept the realities of life and get going; this I believe should be the Sutra for life.
Must be wondering why the title "Carpe diem quam minimum credula postero" It's a Latino phrase and means " seize the day and trust as little as possible in the future" for there is a lot to make of this short paced life.
1. Breaking
2. Matching up and breaking
Life would surely would have been different; but life is not always un sympathetic, it would have its own share of undoing things. I might have have a different forces to deal with; may be a personal drain of my own efforts to some extent. But see it from a different angle; hadn't I gone through this phase of life ; might be a 8 months of the dynamism; it would have paved way to a much bigger thought process and understanding which dawned on me later on.
I could understand
- the values and price of people;
- of whom to trust and whom not to;
- what looks from outside might not be the best one deserves;
- one might not always get what he always envisions
- Things are sometimes to be left in safety of the trusted few.
- Meaning and real value of love
- Needs of sustaining relationships
- Managing expectations and multitasking
- Fear, failure, narrow mindedness etc.
Thinking about the past makes me happy; thinking of recent past makes me sad, thinking about future which is uncertain, unnerves me; But I don't know clinging on to the bygone past and thinking and getting tensed un arrived future why one is torturing his present; making ones past, present and future and tragedy to live and tell. Telling and preaching is easy but listening, understanding, digesting and following mind you is an entirely a different league. Accept the realities of life and get going; this I believe should be the Sutra for life.
Must be wondering why the title "Carpe diem quam minimum credula postero" It's a Latino phrase and means " seize the day and trust as little as possible in the future" for there is a lot to make of this short paced life.
Saturday, May 03, 2008
Life at Pune - 15 day Report
Finally after much deliberations and passive period of confusion and indecisiveness; the decesion to move to Pune was made in quite a haste in a matter of a week of my release from Genpact. I booked my tickets to Pune just a couple of hours before the departure; such was the level of apprehension and internal resistance for the move. The resistance was very high and probably the move should do good to me.
I moved to Pune on 16th April on sunny and hot morning when Pune and the country per se was in a middle of a heat wave and mercury levels scorched beyond 40 degrees with ease. The first impression was "Man how did I end up in this Furnace" The place was fuming with little or no vegetation with hard rock boulders and dusty black soil clad by roads adding to the woos of the badly laid infra structure of a city which is growing at a rapid pace much too much for the comfort of the local infrastructure pace and pace. The place of my work is at Hinjewadi which is on the far north end of the city where if one has to take out a 5-year back map, this place would not even exist. The roads are yet to be laid and expanded fully, and the place is connected by small satellite villages(Aundh, Sus, Baner, Pashan etc...) on the way which are rapidlyto become part of Greater Pune.
Public transport is a big problem here. Bus service is ok types but the quality of the buses are pretty substandard by major South Indian cities standard. Auto ricks and taxi are a loot here; worse than the Autowalas of Chennai. They squeeze in the maximum moolah out of the unsuspecting passenger who falls an unnatural and unintended victim to his vims. If one has a non-maharatra registered vehicle then the public servants - police turn against the poor guy who just moved in to make the maximum in bribing.
Finding a house here is another big sober story; the place is run by a mafia of Real estate agents and brokers; who are there to make the maximum of the money and rents and cost of the residential facilities are being artificially pushed up alomost on a weekly basis.
Night life I felt is pretty much limited in myt part of the city atleast. Travelling in night is not advised in these remote pockets. Apart from this interstate travel has been another headache; bus agents charge amounts well beyond the rates of 2nd AC fares and sometimes more than 1st AC during weekends. People are genuinely denied tickets in state run transports like the APTDC or the APSRTC buses for a lack of margin they make on selling Private operators buses creating an artificial scarcity of seats. Bad the travellers like us are the most who suffer.
Yaa one thing I like is I get to eat an occasional Vada Pav or Dabelli on the roadside but yes sometimes I miss my Dosa, Idly with Proper Sambhar and chutney. Early days for me to comment for me as too many things running around and lot to stabilise and settle down. Looks like this yeart will also have its bit of action and dynamism.
For now I am accessing internet through a netcafe as I m not wired in at Pune so will take sometime to hook-in and have more of blogging. Have a few certifications to complete this week; and haven't touched the same for over a few months now. Anyways until then chao...
I moved to Pune on 16th April on sunny and hot morning when Pune and the country per se was in a middle of a heat wave and mercury levels scorched beyond 40 degrees with ease. The first impression was "Man how did I end up in this Furnace" The place was fuming with little or no vegetation with hard rock boulders and dusty black soil clad by roads adding to the woos of the badly laid infra structure of a city which is growing at a rapid pace much too much for the comfort of the local infrastructure pace and pace. The place of my work is at Hinjewadi which is on the far north end of the city where if one has to take out a 5-year back map, this place would not even exist. The roads are yet to be laid and expanded fully, and the place is connected by small satellite villages(Aundh, Sus, Baner, Pashan etc...) on the way which are rapidlyto become part of Greater Pune.
Public transport is a big problem here. Bus service is ok types but the quality of the buses are pretty substandard by major South Indian cities standard. Auto ricks and taxi are a loot here; worse than the Autowalas of Chennai. They squeeze in the maximum moolah out of the unsuspecting passenger who falls an unnatural and unintended victim to his vims. If one has a non-maharatra registered vehicle then the public servants - police turn against the poor guy who just moved in to make the maximum in bribing.
Finding a house here is another big sober story; the place is run by a mafia of Real estate agents and brokers; who are there to make the maximum of the money and rents and cost of the residential facilities are being artificially pushed up alomost on a weekly basis.
Night life I felt is pretty much limited in myt part of the city atleast. Travelling in night is not advised in these remote pockets. Apart from this interstate travel has been another headache; bus agents charge amounts well beyond the rates of 2nd AC fares and sometimes more than 1st AC during weekends. People are genuinely denied tickets in state run transports like the APTDC or the APSRTC buses for a lack of margin they make on selling Private operators buses creating an artificial scarcity of seats. Bad the travellers like us are the most who suffer.
Yaa one thing I like is I get to eat an occasional Vada Pav or Dabelli on the roadside but yes sometimes I miss my Dosa, Idly with Proper Sambhar and chutney. Early days for me to comment for me as too many things running around and lot to stabilise and settle down. Looks like this yeart will also have its bit of action and dynamism.
For now I am accessing internet through a netcafe as I m not wired in at Pune so will take sometime to hook-in and have more of blogging. Have a few certifications to complete this week; and haven't touched the same for over a few months now. Anyways until then chao...
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Sleepy Personality !!
Sleeping Sideways
Those who sleep sideways are calm and peaceful people. They are not overly excitable nor are they particularly sensitive. They are steady, do what they are expected, and get the most they can out of life, but they do not drive themselves crazy while attempting to "get ahead."
Sleeping Face-down
People who sleep face-down are serious and stubborn. They hold strong beliefs and try to have everything done precisely the way they want them. They are tense and focused, and they do not give ground easily.The most important things in my LIFE areNot THINGS!!
Sleeping Face-up
Those who sleep face-up are confident and optimistic. Concerns and worries that wear others down have little effect on these people. Their attitude is "lucky go happy," and they are not particularly keen on planning or scheming. Occasionally such an attitude render them vulnerable to unpleasant surprises and setbacks.
Sleeping in the Fetal-Position
Those who sleep in the fetal position are trusting, natural, and communal. They tend to look at the world in rosy colors, and treat people kindly. They do not want to see and think about the darker side of life, and above all they long for security, intimacy, and joy.
Adapted from Web
Those who sleep sideways are calm and peaceful people. They are not overly excitable nor are they particularly sensitive. They are steady, do what they are expected, and get the most they can out of life, but they do not drive themselves crazy while attempting to "get ahead."
Sleeping Face-down
People who sleep face-down are serious and stubborn. They hold strong beliefs and try to have everything done precisely the way they want them. They are tense and focused, and they do not give ground easily.The most important things in my LIFE areNot THINGS!!
Sleeping Face-up
Those who sleep face-up are confident and optimistic. Concerns and worries that wear others down have little effect on these people. Their attitude is "lucky go happy," and they are not particularly keen on planning or scheming. Occasionally such an attitude render them vulnerable to unpleasant surprises and setbacks.
Sleeping in the Fetal-Position
Those who sleep in the fetal position are trusting, natural, and communal. They tend to look at the world in rosy colors, and treat people kindly. They do not want to see and think about the darker side of life, and above all they long for security, intimacy, and joy.
Adapted from Web
The way the Sunsigns say Sorrys
ARIES
For starters, Arians think they are so sweet,they could not have possibly said or done things that need an apology. So in the unlikely possibility of them actually going down their knees to apologise, it will be a simple sorry.Nothing less, nothing more!!
TAURUS
They are so scared to face others when they make a mistake that by the time they resurface to tender an apology, the damage is done. So Taurans end up making foes out of friends because of their laxity in apologizing
GEMINI
Geminis think they are infallible and therefore will never really apologise for anything. But once they realize, they prefer to act as if nothing happened, and behave normally with people who have a problem rather than remind others of the incident by tendering an apology.
CANCER
Cancerians will make you feel sorry for demanding one when they make a mistake. They are the legendary characters that burn hands and slash their fingers in order to display the quantum of their repentance. Their repentance is dangerous!!
VIRGO
Virgos will first formally set aside a time and date and inform them what they want to tell you. Then they will mentally prepare themselves to talk out the same things. They will finally draft the script and read out whatever they want to. In short, even their heartfelt apologies sound like well-drafted scripts.
LIBRA
They are very vocal once they realize their folly. They never ever hesitate to come clean and admit their mistakes. In fact, they will go out of their way to convince you about how genuinely sorry they are
SCORPIO
Scorpios are formal and think that tendering an apology is more of a formality. So instead of just saying sorry, they will send a formal mail or send a card, whatever it takes to avoid direct confrontation.
CAPRICORN
They can't take a simple sorry. They need reasons,explanations, written letters and the works to get elicit an 'ok, you may go now' phrase. They are hard to please and even harder to appease.
AQUARIUS
They are sweet, genuine and innovative when they think they are wrong and need to undo the damage.Aquarians are easy on their mistakes and don't take too much time to do their sorrying.
PISCES
Pisceans don't easily give in because they believe that everything is about perspective. So if somebody thinks they made a mistake!!, it's because they have a wonky perspective.Pisceans and apologies? No chance!!!
Adapted from a forum
For starters, Arians think they are so sweet,they could not have possibly said or done things that need an apology. So in the unlikely possibility of them actually going down their knees to apologise, it will be a simple sorry.Nothing less, nothing more!!
TAURUS
They are so scared to face others when they make a mistake that by the time they resurface to tender an apology, the damage is done. So Taurans end up making foes out of friends because of their laxity in apologizing
GEMINI
Geminis think they are infallible and therefore will never really apologise for anything. But once they realize, they prefer to act as if nothing happened, and behave normally with people who have a problem rather than remind others of the incident by tendering an apology.
CANCER
Cancerians will make you feel sorry for demanding one when they make a mistake. They are the legendary characters that burn hands and slash their fingers in order to display the quantum of their repentance. Their repentance is dangerous!!
VIRGO
Virgos will first formally set aside a time and date and inform them what they want to tell you. Then they will mentally prepare themselves to talk out the same things. They will finally draft the script and read out whatever they want to. In short, even their heartfelt apologies sound like well-drafted scripts.
LIBRA
They are very vocal once they realize their folly. They never ever hesitate to come clean and admit their mistakes. In fact, they will go out of their way to convince you about how genuinely sorry they are
SCORPIO
Scorpios are formal and think that tendering an apology is more of a formality. So instead of just saying sorry, they will send a formal mail or send a card, whatever it takes to avoid direct confrontation.
CAPRICORN
They can't take a simple sorry. They need reasons,explanations, written letters and the works to get elicit an 'ok, you may go now' phrase. They are hard to please and even harder to appease.
AQUARIUS
They are sweet, genuine and innovative when they think they are wrong and need to undo the damage.Aquarians are easy on their mistakes and don't take too much time to do their sorrying.
PISCES
Pisceans don't easily give in because they believe that everything is about perspective. So if somebody thinks they made a mistake!!, it's because they have a wonky perspective.Pisceans and apologies? No chance!!!
Adapted from a forum
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Curtains for my Genpact Career
Yesterday the 9th of April marked an end of milestone, I finally bid farewell to my career with Genpact after 2 years of service with Genpact. My association with Genpact started as early as October 2005, when it was still a GE company and was getting enchristened as Genpact post the strategic sale; this association was on back of my closest friends & couple of engineering mates joining Ge. In Decemeber 2005, came to know about the whole BPO industry, its offerings and where Genpact stood during my non-credit classes. The sessions where conducted by our IIM Alumni Sanjeev Singh, who was then Collections COE leader at Genpact; Others included Amit Agarwal(presently Quality Head), Shuba Laksmi(Global HR VP), Ritu Rekha(transition) and couple more handling each and every aspect of the industry. Then subsequently joined the company which I always wanted to be part of. My HR-AVP was the part of the two-member recruitment team which visited us for recruitment.
Anyways two years of learning, growth - personal & professional seen it all and expereinced it all to express and blog it today. Though not the best of expereinces in the overall perspective, it would hold a special place in my heart always for many years to come. Lots of people then questioned and challenged my intent of joining Genpact, but I don't regret it either.
I cherished a few praises I liked a lot from my collegues
"A very Genuine guy at heart"
" A person of heart who feels for others"
" I've never seen such a Genuine and open hearted guy in my professional life"
" Very straight and onto the point - Absolutely no sugar-coating when you express your thoughts"
"You have been a great friend and we certainly shared a great working relationship… Though our interactions have been much, I want you to know that I have a high regard for the expertise that you bring along… Needless to mention, I do look up to you…"
"Your quiting was a shock to our team, we always looked forward to you for inspiration'
Touchy sentences, though I have not been able to touch a lot of people, but I am happy people took me close to their heart, and where open hearted, and shared bonding at a personal level than at a professional level.
For long I might have craved to move out of the compay, the time has come for me to take that step out, out from comfort and try and experiment new things and new life. As I step forward into an uncertain future I carry with my self a heavy heart, and oblivion within yearing to be filled. Am just short of tears as I was stepping out, trying to be as optimistic as I can and as I write this blog.
I pray that my stint with Genpact never goes waste, and hope that whosoever I was involved with and I joined in for make the best of the same and be sucessful than ever.
Monday, April 07, 2008
Ugadi Shubhakankshalu
This new year started with a new hope, new desire and lots of new expectations. Woke up early in the morning before Six, had my bath and off to Laxmi Ganapthi temple for Sivaabhishekam. Though I didn't actually take part in person for the same, I atleast got a chance to supply most of the water required for the Abhishekam. The Abhishekam culminated after 2 hrs at around 8.15am. Then to my Nav pradakhsana, blessings from preists - Bhavani Sharma and Simham. Though I loved Pulihora served in this temple, by the time Abhishekam Prasadam was finished, felt bad as I got to have only a few grains and couldn't carry back any home. Then back home played with the kids while waiting for my Ugadi Prasadam - Ugadi Pachadi. Then quick breakfast with Paravanam and dosas.Towards afternoon was invited to my cousins place for lunch, where the entire family battalion was waiting. Lots of stuff to choose from, to eat, my lunch went on for unusually long time as I hogged for close to 20minutes. Then time to chill out, went shopping to Koti though it was more of ride than anything else.
Then after that straight to Prasad'z IMAX. Waited at the counter at the window deciding what movie to watch and what not to. Finally we decided not to go ahead for any. Then went in brisked the floors, with some chiks and crowd gazing while headed to the new 4dfx theatre in Prasads. The new theatre adds an additional dimension of feel/touch to increase the movie experience. The seats are movable, they shake, tilt they vibrate. You would also have fire lighting all round the theatre, and siphoned air coming and shooting at us from different locations. A small screen, 3-d cartoon movie of not more than 10 min was screened to an excited crowd which went for a ride in those 10 minutes. Though the experience was anything but awesome the price was pretty steep at 100/- its like we paid 10 bucks per minute of viewing.
Then to game zone, quick racing in Ferrari pit, then raced again against each other followed by a few stupid games. We later realised that it started raining outside so headed out into open, for a long ride alongside the Tankbund making a full circle on the rain trenched stretch, squeezing the throttle to the maximum while the engine struggle to rev pass our excitement. Went through the streets scouting for hot masala bajji joints and to book movie tickets for Jalsa, unfortunately couldn't get the tickets for the same. Came back home completely drenched and wetting the carpets at my cousins place. Then sat down to eat cookies, fryums and some similar khara after quick drying up session. Then started the long gyan sessions, talks and chit-chats then slowly as night started taking over more and more people started leaving for the night. Was the last to move out after the hosts locked the door. Bid goodbye and thanking all for the time. Then headed home then again few more cousins have come. Quick chat goodbye, then as I sat down had a few calls. Special calls to start with, was wildly elated on the same, as had been in middle of interesting and long conversation for over 2 hrs. Special calls for quite many reasons, was such a fun to talk and share. Then toward the midnight a spur of midnight sms was rampant with my cousins talking about the day, as I slowly started to retire for the night.
Fabulous day, had lots of fun and excitement. Tension free was the key, thanks to my special Guardian angel with whom my unwinding and guilt-factor within would have just persisted over.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
The laziest countdown
As the month of March draws to the close, as ta typical Libran does the best during a crucial period of decision making...brood, sit-over, over think, over analyse without arriving at a decision. Its been a difficult week as I am coming to the fact that in a few days I will be partying myself from something close to the heart, a place I was born, grew and became a citizen off. as I prepare myself to pack myself off in a few weeks, I was getting all nostalgic of this place, and places I used to roam around. Last week I visited the DLFH SEZ facility might be the last time for me, then went to Gokul Chat. Was pretty deeply hurt for the fact that this place had a special place in my heart, partly due to my visits to this place to eat, partly due to the shopping-backed snack during my 4- years of engineering and a bit of my special time here too. Then been to Mehdipatnam. Yaa there was a glimmer of hope that I could somehow someway catch a glimpse of my ex, for the last time. Been longing to meet and express my feelings and tell how badly I needed to express and see her and let go of all the emotions deeply tied down, buried deep inside.
More so at office an amazing nostalgia begins to surround as the organisation I've somewhat proudly been associated and somewhat cursed it for not keeping upto my expectations did seem to be becoming an oblivion of the futures past. My disassociation with the company as it becomes inevitable has started to pinch me terribly hard. The people I've been with at the company felt deeply bonded and entrusted to a few of them quite emotionally, and being with them did make me comfortable and happy. And probably thats the precisely the same things which I am running away from
Running away from the comfort, support, love, and care of the well wishers. I do know I need to rediscover myself, spend and gain my own experience and way of solving problems. I hope being alone makes me come out transformed as a more improved person than I am today. More exposure less of dependence I believe should do atleast a small wonder. So as the countdown to move on begins, and lookout for new beginning, the past which has its own good and bad, and the nostalgia all around is holding me back, and very true I happen to sway around in a infinite space of suspended animation beyond the very constraints of time.
More so at office an amazing nostalgia begins to surround as the organisation I've somewhat proudly been associated and somewhat cursed it for not keeping upto my expectations did seem to be becoming an oblivion of the futures past. My disassociation with the company as it becomes inevitable has started to pinch me terribly hard. The people I've been with at the company felt deeply bonded and entrusted to a few of them quite emotionally, and being with them did make me comfortable and happy. And probably thats the precisely the same things which I am running away from
Running away from the comfort, support, love, and care of the well wishers. I do know I need to rediscover myself, spend and gain my own experience and way of solving problems. I hope being alone makes me come out transformed as a more improved person than I am today. More exposure less of dependence I believe should do atleast a small wonder. So as the countdown to move on begins, and lookout for new beginning, the past which has its own good and bad, and the nostalgia all around is holding me back, and very true I happen to sway around in a infinite space of suspended animation beyond the very constraints of time.
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